Yes back to our original state!!!
My first goal is 140-145 which was my initial goal for years!
Decided I can try to see what my body feels like and push down to 125-135 also, but that goal is no rush for me, since my actual goal is around 140! Any lower is just bonus and can take my time with it slowly and steadily while toning up with weights! 
Yes! I totally get you. First goal to get to for me is that 154. Then I would like to get to 145, and stay as close to that until I die or am translated to the next dimension lol.
Day 8:
After 10 pm tonight, I will be in the very beginning of my 9th day, which will be the longest I have fasted for. So close to the double digit days! Feels great. The rest of my 7th day was great. I did feel pretty wiped out with all the mom running around stuff I had going on. But in a good way. It was nice to fall asleep before midnight lol. When I woke up today I felt pretty tired. I attribute some of the tiredness to my super long, intense and vivid dreams. I like how I feel physically today. Itās not quite euphoric, but more of strong, bad ass, in control. It feels good. Maybe itās because Iām getting a gun lol. Yep, thatās right, I will be a gun owner. I have good reason to carry l. I donāt want to get too much into it, but it involves years of domestic violence and trauma I experienced at the hand of my ex husband. Iām just sick of him fucking with me. I would identify him as your typical sociopath. He wonāt leave me alone. And to top it off, the fucker is a criminal informant for the county we live in. So I have had absolutely no help from law enforcement, judges, restraining orders, etc. Years of corruption and bullshit. I recently had a break in at my new home. I canāt prove itās my ex, but I know it is. Itās his nature. Itās his way of saying: you can never hide from me. I even moved into a gated community and live with a bodyguard. Anyway, just like with weight loss and getting fit, I canāt expect someone else to do that for me. So I canāt expect someone to defend or protect me either. And just like with my weight loss, Iām taking my safety and protection into my own hands. My ex told me he would wait five years to kill me so that no one would suspect him.
In a lighter noteā¦I forgot to weigh myself this morning, so tomorrow I will have the update on my weight 
Damn, thatās a tough situation. Have you reached out to any of the domestic violence groups that could give you advice on this complicated situation? As a fellow Californian, Iām sure there are resources here, especially in THIS state.
Maybe you could reach out to your local congressman, take it to the federal level. One of the gigs I had in my computer career was 6 months as a computer consultant for the NorthWest regional office of the Department of Corrections for the State of Washington. The highpoint was briefly working with a multi-agency task force of FBI, state, county and local law enforcement going after hard-core criminals. As a result I learned of the hierarchy in law enforement.
Wow, Iām both terrified and extremely angry reading all of that! Iām so sorry you canāt even feel safe in your own house! No one should have to go through that terror of threat each day, especially when he has that position of power!
I hope youāll get help Rebecca! Please keep us updated! 
Iām sorry about that situation with your ex 
thatās so scary.
despite that, I donāt want to downplay your huge fasting achievement! congratulations on getting to a new personal record of fasting days! You are so close to your final goal, I donāt blame you for just going for it!
Hey guys, Iām still here. I thought I would be happier to have hit the double digit days than I am. I have tried and failed forward countless times trying to get to 10 days fasted. Welp, here I am lol. I went MIA for a couple days because of overwhelming emotion. My last journal entry I just wrote how I felt. For me, that is what I use journaling for the most, to document my feelings. I rely appreciate everyoneās responses. However, it lead to a resurfacing of deep, deep pain and suffering. Along with the emotional uprising, the weed cravings came too, but I did not yield to them! I just rode out my feelings. Spent one day just sobbing on my bathroom floor. Actually having a hard time not tearing up writing this. Alipio, you would think not in this state. But, unfortunately, I have been bamboozled by corruption and just pure evil. You would think that I would be the one with custody of my children after my ex was arrested for ramming my car (with me and our daughters inside) 8 times while I am on a 911 call and driving to the police station. That day there were witnesses that saw my ex trying to run me off the road (this was Dec.28th 2018) and my ex was arrested and jailed for FELONY assault with a deadly weapon, FELONY child endangerment possible death and a violation to a CURRENT Cri Protective Order (which was issued for my ex slashing my tires in 2015 which was also done in front of our two daughters). My ex was released 5 days later after the car ramming WITH NO CHARGES FILED. The DA claimed their witnesses had a different story. The cops were shocked. I was given temporary custody only for the corrupt judge to give custody back to my CRIMINAL ex. The judge also just so happened to be a for DA for Butte county during the year I was an eye witness to my ex being a criminal informant-I was young and dumb and naive then. Anyway, I have been working through all of the feelings that come with trying to stand up against pure evil, only to effing lose over and over and over again. I left this pos ex of mine back in 2014 after he locked me in the house for 2 days. I literally had to run for my life. He beat the shit out of me in front of our two daughters and tried strangling me after I discovered a lot of disturbing pornographic things on his phone. He didnāt want his secrets out so he locked me in the house. My children have been to numerous interviews, everything the have disclosed should be enough for him to have supervised visits until he proves himself no longer a danger. Anyway, I have surrendered all to God to keep my sanity. I put in a motion and I did actually win, literally thank GOD (I had a new judge for this motion) to get the case moved the fuck out of Butte county to Tehama county where my ex and I both now reside and where out children attend school. I am hoping a new judge, new court will help this situation. It can take up to 2 months for the case to get all the way moved over. Anyway, once moved to the new courthouse, I will ask for custody again, because I have done NOTHING wrong, I have no criminal history and I am the safer freaking parent obviously. Weāll see what happens.
On a brighter sideā¦
I am on day 10 guys! Crying so much these last couple of days has left me feeling incredibly weak. Luckily I can rest. The weight is coming off so freaking slow, or at least that is how I feel. I always hope for a pound a day kind of results. I am down to 161.8. I hope to at least see a number in the 150ās at the end of my fast lol, even if it is 159.9 
I wish I took before measurements. I havenāt taken any measurements this fast. But I still have my data/measurements from my October challenge fast. So it will be fun to compare. One thing I was hoping to see clear up this fast is the redness on my face (possibly rosacea). I think I may have to fast from coffee for that. This fast I wanted the focus to be weightloss and overcoming the weed addiction. I am thinking of doing a 1-2 day refeed and jumping into the February fasting challenge with the group. With this next fast, I would like to eliminate my coffee addiction. So we shall see! I want to focus on nutrient packing my refeed days, I plan on OMAD style for the refeed I am pretty big into skin care so I know what I do eat will be fat focused to relish my skinās moisture.
First of all, daaammmnnnn. I commend you for sticking with your fast. I donāt know if I could have done it with that much emotional stress happening to me. Iāll definitely use your story as an example in my presentations (changing the name of course) as āyou think you have it tough? I have this friend of mineā¦ā
One suggestion is maybe reaching out to celebrity lawyer Gloria Allread? She loves to stick it to the man and I think your story would interest her. Just a suggestion.
We are all here to support you!
Iām out of words and heartbroken reading your story. Youāre a fighter Rebecca, even though I wish you didnāt have to take those fights.
I wish all the best for you and your children!
I really appreciate your love and support guys! I really do! Alipio, I am going to look into your suggestionā¦thank you
Ending day 10:
Wow, 10 days. I am going strong although I was super low energy today. My housemate/body gaurd told me to eat something with sugar in it lol. He was getting frustrated with my slowness and not really paying attention or hearing what he was trying to say to me most of the day.
Although I feel so tired and slightly weak, I do like this one feeling I have. The best I can describe it is that it feels like my summer body is so close! I feel my 145 pound self emerging. The woman I see on the inside is so much closer to the surface. And there is a feeling that comes with that. It makes me excited. I have been fantasizing a lot more about the dresses I see myself wearing this summer. I still havenāt taken measurements, but I plan to tomorrow. I did snap a quick side profile of my torso this morning after weighing in.
Today I didnāt go for walk in neighborhood like I have been lately, but I did do a lot of strolling downtown as I shopped for furniture for my new house and that felt good. I know I said I wanted to refeed for a couple days and then jump into another fast, but I think I am going to change things up for February. I think I am going to OMAD and exercise daily. My body gaurd has asked me if I would be interested in doing either Tai Chi or yoga with him or possibly both. I really want to do this especially if I would have a buddy doing it! Feeling how have the couple of last days, I couldnāt imagine working out. For me, I think it would be too risky. I am also planning on challenging myself to fast from coffee (my other addiction) this upcoming month. I have always been a to get out of bed without requiring coffee, but I am addicted to the ritual, the taste, the additives I want in it, etc. Anyway, I am thinking that is what I will do for February. It feels right. Fast from coffee, OMAD (focusing on health promoting, lower in carbohydrate foods), and exercising with a focus on building muscle, strength and endurance. I really know nothing about fitness. I do now, have this mind that has always been able to push myself physically. I would just like to see myself do thos regularly and make physical fitness a habit I enjoy! What do I hope to gain with this changes? A redness-free face (all my research has led me to rosacea and all the research says to avoid coffee, chocolate, alcohol, grains amd dairy. I am good on the others, except for the damn coffee with HWC). I also hope to gain more energy, a lifted butt lol, whiter teeth and just an overall strong body.
Gosh, looking at these side by sides and not even a 3 lbs difference. Fasting for me equals inches lost and firming up, just not a lot of pounds down. It is so weird!
You may want to check out my Daily Journal, S2E1 30-Day Flexibility & Endurance Phase Journal. Thereās lots of info & videos that pass my review
Look at that!!!
Good idea, I will!
How tall are you?
Good morning! Day 11 here 1/29/2020
Woke up with the nastiest breath! Yucko man! Lol. Weighed myself, no weightloss. Stayed the same. So I thought tonconvat the totally bummed feelings of a no loss, I would measure myself. So here we go!
My original measurements where at the beginning of October challenge taken October 27th, weight then: 169. Today: 161.8(73.4kg)
Difference of 7.2 lbs (3.2 kg). I am 5ā8.5" tall. All the inches lost below are from my original measurement taken again, October 27th 2019:
Neck: -1/2"
Upper chest: -1 3/4"
Chest: -1/4"
Left arm: -1/8"
Right arm: -3/4"
Waist: -1 1/2"
Hips (true hip): -1"
Pooch(lower abdomen): -1 3/4"
Right thigh: -1 3/16"
Left thigh: -1
1/30/2020
Omg, two freaking days to get the above post posted! I have been so busy! A good busy. Now I driving out to a new job site with my business partner, heās driving, so I have a second to finally post this! I have included an inches to centimeter ruler below to give a reference for those of you here that use metric measurements.
Hi PretttTony, I am 5ā 8.5"/ 174cm
Congrats. It means you are really down to the final dregs of fat now. I always experience a slowing of the weight loss after the initial rapid loss. Focus on the inches now, as you already know.
Keep it up!
