Napa29 Day 0

[NaPa29]

Feb 28, 2020 Day 0

I’m terrified of failing again.
Today I walked 12,000 steps in the morning
3 hours in the sun
I broke my fast at 11am with 500 calories because my mind told me I need to replenish calories
I’m still overweight 157 pounds and 33.5 % fat today
I did not really need to eat
Could have waited for dinner (OMAD)
My mind “tricked me” as Yasmine says
I’m going to start day 1 water fast tomorrow
I need help

WHY?

1. I need to break-up with food in the current relationship we have. I have many many bad habits that have been reinforced repeatedly and frequently for years.

2. I’m sick of being a slave to my cravings. So badly that I will drop what I’m doing to cave to cravings. Driving to get food or even worse ordering it to the door.

3. I haven’t felt good about myself in years and I’m approaching 40 and want this bad feeling to end in this decade of my life. I’ve lived with it for too long.

4. I’m sick of feeling mentally weak. I want to feel mentally strong, unshakable, with steel determination and perseverance. I want to feel proud of my discipline and mental strength.

5. I want to end my food “addiction.” I want stop using food to soothe myself, give warmth and comfort and release endorphins. I need to replace that with something else

6. I don’t drink often but every time I’m doing well on a new health plan, one night out and a couple drinks wrecks me for weeeeeks. I long to be an adult who does not require alcohol to socialize. I want to rely on water and a natural buzz from feeling good and accomplished. I used to be that adult. So I know what if feels like.

7. I want to gain control and be in control of WHAT I eat and how much I eat for the rest of my life.

8. I am so sick of feeling less than really good about myself. I long to return to that feeling that I’ve lost soo long ago

9. I want to look in the mirror, be proud, feel extraordinary and feel like I have complete control and can go out and achieve any great amazing thing. To live my BEST life , for the rest of my life.

10. I need to set an example for my younger sisters so they can feel empowered to make drastic lasting game - changing changes to live a better life. Their best life for the rest of their lives .

[Freedumb]

Yes, you do. I can be part of your cheering squad, but the help you need is going to come from inside yourself. You are in control of what you put in your mouth. The reasons to eat are many. Pick this one or that one, it doesn’t matter. The reason to fast must be stronger than one of your reasons to eat. If you break your fast, don’t give a reason to eat, tell me why the reason you were fasting wasn’t good enough for you. Then, find a better reason.

[NaPa29]

Thank you

[donna]

The beauty of fasting is that you can knock out a few of these reasons at the same time. You can do it-- you’re doing this for yourself because YOU are worth it.

Stay checked in for support. If you haven’t already, read Dr. Jason Fung’s The Obesity Code and watch Yasemin’s videos. I also recommend reading This Naked Mind by Annie Grace for letting go of the booze. They will all help build conviction and determination in you.

Alcohol, sugar, and starches (grains) are really addictive. But many of us here have been able to ditch all of them. Freedom is absolutely glorious! You were meant to be free! Do it for you.

[NaPa29]

Today Is March 1, 2020. Day 1 0900 AM

** God give me the strength to not back down.
** I have been eating all my adult life like food Controls me: I eat when I’m not hungry, I eat when I’m full, I eat when I see food, when I smell food. Even when I don’t want it. Even when I’m uncomfortably stuffed.
** I have a scarcity mentality about food even though food has NEVER been scarce for me.
** I approach food like it’s only available for a fleeting moment and I must consume it before it’s not available to me. Why? It’s ALWaYS available.

*** As I embark on this water fast, I’m so scared I’ll endure this hardship for however long and then revert back to my old horrible habits. I fear those habits are stronger than me. I wish I had reassurance that the habits would be broken for good if I could just commit to X number of days on a water fast. At least then there would be a light for me at the end of the tunnel.

*** Nothing has worked in 10 years. I feel like I need to give this a go to save myself. I feel so trapped by these habits. I am going to pray that this “fixes” me for good ****

*** bad food Habits are many and will list them later. Right now I’m stuffed full from last night, getting emotionally stressed over this fast, and keep thinking to shove carbs/sugar in my mouth for quick soothing (bad habit #1) ; will pound some ice water and then coffee instead

*** for anyone reading and attempting this too, Good Luck and prayers for us For now I’m just gonna have faith that full effort will be rewarded with lasting results ****

[Yasemin]

Bookmarking this now!!! I will come back and read this evening!!!

[Yasemin]

@NaPa29 This journal is soooooo powerful!!!

Exactly as you said in #1 the way you way is a habit that we have reinforced for years, so we have to break it and replace it with a new habit!!

Self-discipline is “doing what you know you need to do, when you need to do it, whether you feel like it or not.” so every time you push yourself to do something even though you don’t feel like it (not eating… fasting… going to the gym… waking up early… cleaning the house…) it strengthens your self discipline!!!

Remember the stickies!!! You are 135 lbs and you have already succeeded!!

[DrSwetha_Bapanipally]

It’s very frank what you have said. Even I binge ( I mean ate a little of what I like, dint really over stuff myself) the day before fast. I din’t keep keto or omad. As if it’s the end of the world. But I’m glad I started fasting and will stay strong to continue. I have already cut on many bad habits like carb addiction and eating without being hungry. Some habits do come back but not are as bad as they were before. I’m just following others who are making it possible. I will make it possible too. I wish you all the best to stay strong and achieve what u want out of this fasting episode.

[NaPa29]

@DrSwetha_Bapanipally
T hank you, Dr Swetha
You’re inspiring
For you too

[NaPa29]

March 2, 2020 Day 2 Water Fast

*** Up at usual time 4am and work 8-1830 today
*** Took sleep aid at 930pm, woke 230, fell back asleep
*** Yesterday I wasn’t hungry at all (because I had eaten an exorbitant amount of food in the days prior)
*** Back at work today and feeling anxious about all of my bad habit triggers at work (x 10 years)
*** God give me the strength to navigate them and not cave
*** Sipping coffee and feeling hopeful
*** Feeling thankful today for an able body, an able mind, my coach Yasemine, and this incredible community of inspiring people

*** Today I will focus on observing my triggers and creating maps that I can use permanently to navigate them
*** also, I will focus on my new Identity

Affirmation:
I am someone who does Not eat at work.

[Compdude]

You have to replace the old mentality with a new one, because in a crisis you will default to the old pattern. I won’t sugar coat it for you as its hard wired in your head after so many years. However, it IS possible.

What helped me was reading a story Anthony Robbins told in one of his books about breaking an old pattern. In his family, the pattern is its only when people started arguing in a loud voice that meant they were now serious about discussing an issue. However, his wife was raised in a family where when someone raised their voice the polite thing to do was leave the room. You can imagine this was very frustrating for Anthony.

So he learned a pattern interrupt before he would unconsciously enter the loop which is as his voice would start to rise, his wife would lean over and pinch him on the thigh.

Bottom-line its not enough to know your triggers because then you’re already in the loop. Its best to identify the behavior right before and do a pattern interrupt then.

Hope this helps!

[NaPa29]

@Compdude
Thank you
I will think about this and how I can implement

[NaPa29]

March 3, 2020 Day 3 0515AM

**God help me make it through this day please
** I am Soooooo tired. Woke at 130am and haven’t fallen back asleep
** Might be the fast/ night be withdrawn from stopping sleep meds (will see in the next few days)
** Being tired from lack of sleep has always been one of the Biggest strongest carb binging triggers for me. I know hormone levels are impacted
** today will be a test and also an opportunity to create a plan to combat this particular type of trigger FOrEVER

Challenge for the day;
*** How to handle , exhaustion/sleep deprivation Carb/Sugar binging trigger : Hack this and use Hack for life

Thankful for my fasting community today

[Yasemin]

Magnesium often helps people sleep before bed time!!!

You woke up early but hopefully that means you can get to bed nice and early tonight!

Today’s goal! Resist office temptation, come home, stay busy, get to bed early! As simple as that.

I’m here for you! Text me all day even if your mind starts to trick you!

Remember, do NOT break your fast before talking to me!!! I’ll talk you out of it!

[Yasemin]

@NaPa29 How are you feeling today?

Today I want to see:

1 positive affirmation

and I want you to look in the mirror and visualize yourself at goal and say you have already successfully completed an extended fast!!!

Remember these

[NaPa29]

Mar 4, 2020 Day 4 of Extended Water Fast. 0627 am
**** I made it through Phase 1!!!- THANK YOU COACH YASEMIN!!!********

** Yesterday was a bit of a struggle. I visited Coo-Coo Town:
** Around 2pm coworker drinking Bubble tea and describing it to other coworker next to me, I felt an urge to punch her out and snatch it
** 530pm I smelled a strong sweet cotton candy like scent from an older man’s head and I thought to lick his head only for a split second
** evening at gas station: an adorable baby’s feet, protruding out of a onesie, looked like gummy candies
What is wrong with me???

gas station 0.02 miles from home
immediately came home
pounded water and prepped for bead

lesson: avoid stepping foot in gas stations altogether. post work bad habit trigger #2 (I used to stop for loads of junk food after a long/tough day at work) Just AVOID. Use credit card outside in filling station

have not been able to be productive after work yet
too hard to self distract from food without visual entertainment (youtube/netflix)
hoping that changes

sleep: up at 300am today. no sleep aid. better than night before (up at 1am)
will order magnesium

Off today. Day 4. Praying to keep strong and distracted

[NaPa29]

@Yasemin- I am Incredibly Mentally Strong. I am a person of Extreme Discipline and Will Power

good morning
and thank you

[Yasemin]

Yes gas stations are a total trigger for MANY people!! I’m glad you are become more and more self aware by the minute!!! So proud of you!!! let’s get it!!!

[NaPa29]

Day 5 March 5,2020

Still having sleep disturbance all night
trouble falling asleep And staying asleep
Mg and KCl tabs should arrive today

Yesterday was HARD
I felt hunger
I fought temptation to do drive through runs during my errands
Had to lie down for an hour
Was 74 degrees inside and I needed 2 blankets and was still cold and clammy
Left after an hour for a walk in the sun (1h) ans it helped
Felt flu like yesterday

This morning I woke up feeling light headed
Thankful I’m off today so I can take it easy and stay inside

I feel “light” and “airy”

My next weigh in will be tomorrow morning

Sending warm thoughts and prayers to all fasters today .

[Nayohme]

Wow, good job! Keep it up, and Good luck for your following says!