Intro
Yes, @Yasemin, thank you so much! I’m using your template, and I want to take this opportunity to also thank you for motivating me on YouTube and setting up this forum. You are an angel.
Hi, my name is “Niamel”, and like so many of you, I also struggled with eating since I became pregnant with my first child. Before that I was always fit, healthy and skinny. I could eat what ever I wanted and never had to diet. When I became pregnant all that changed. I gained 35kg (2005)and became very ill, I had to stay in bed and take rest during the last trimester of my first pregnancy. I was young and naive. I listened to the wrong advise, such as “ you need to eat for two now”, and “Milk is very important for your bones”, etc. A day after birth of my first pregnancy, I lost 15kg (water retention), and I managed to loose another 10kg before my second pregnancy. My two children are a year and a half apart. During my second pregnancy, I didn’t listen to other people and their well meant advise and only gained 7kg(2006); all baby weight… Soon there after, I managed to go to my before weight of 58kg. Well, actually when I got pregnant with my first child I weight 52kg and I was 25 years old. A very healthy weight for me at 1,62m. I was healthy and fit again, and I started my own yoga school, which was a great succes! (2010-2016) Then in August 2016 everything changed; we moved to the south (2hours drive) and I had to give up my yoga school, I had to change universities and I had to make new friends. I was a wreck in 2018, overworked, studying, and teaching, and worrying about my autistic son, etc. But I managed to do a 19 day water fast in October 2018 and went from 76kg - 66,7kg. What a difference that made. Refeeding went well the first two days, but I had no clue back then about intermittent fasting or OMAD. So, I just went keto, and gained all the weight back again. I was so sad. I’ve had so many 1 -10 day water only fasts after that, but couldn’t maintain. Then I realized it might be because of the hormones I was taking and I don’t have a gallbladder anymore. 22 April (83,4kg) I went vegan and OMAD, but I still took the hormones (femoston) and when on 15 June I weight 82kg, and didn’t see any change, I decided to stop taking the hormones. I continued with OMAD vegan for another week (while on a little break away to our holiday house) with some cheat meals because I just wanted to taste and have everything for the last time before I started my next prolonged water fast. So on 26 June I decided to go for another, as long as I can, water fast. My starting weight was 82,6kg and I’m on day 3 now, hardest day yet, but this morning I weighed in at 80,2kg. Just another 2kg and I’m not obese anymore!
Why
Oh, man, where to start? I am doing this obviously because I feel sad and I feel depressed and ashamed of myself and just as some or most of you, I used to isolate myself from the people around me because I wasn’t happy with how I felt and I wasn’t happy with what I looked like. I still have so many insecurities, but on Friday, 26 June 2020, I decided it was time to treat my body with respect and take care of my health because if I don’t do it now… I will always feel like a failure and also I really want to be able to get into my bikini when we go on holiday in 3 weeks time! I want to get compliments again, I want to wear all my lovely dresses and skinny jeans, and I want to run the Rotterdam, 1/4 marathon end of October with my proud husband. I want to see my reflection and smile.
Long Term and Short Term Goals:
Short term goals:
- get from BMI Obese to BMI “overweight” (4kg to go)
- Run every other day
- 7 day fast
- 10 day fast
- 14 day fast
- 21 day fast
- 30 day fast (still on holiday)
- 40 day fast (back home)
Long term goals:
- get from BMI overweight to BMI “normal”
- get to the 55kg - 58kg goal weight range
- Run 10,5km by October.
What are some struggles you face or you have faced in the past
Just like some of you, I used to skip social events, pool parties, beach days, dinner parties, formal events, even interviews because I would have a meltdown while getting ready since nothing would fit and I would feel awful. I would go through my whole closet and all my clothes would end up on the ground on a huge pile with me crying over it and very ashamed. I feel ashamed of myself for doing this to myself, thinking sometimes, why even bother, but I need to admit it here, before I can change my habits and ways. Oh, and don’t get me started on buying new clothes. I can’t remember when the last time was that I bought clothes. I dread going into a cubicle to try stuff on.
** What is your game plan?**
I did OMAD vegan Intermittent Fasting since 22 April, but still took hormones too. But stopped taking the hormones since 15 June, and feel great! My first day water fasting was Friday 26 June and I’m planning on fasting as long as I can, then after my fast I want to continue on OMAD vegan, cause I love it and it’s easy to maintain…
How do I feel right now?
I feel pretty excited knowing that I’m going to reach my first short term goal of not being obese as soon as I weigh 78kg, and to get into a bikini in less than a month. Very motivating thoughts.
How will I feel once I achieve my goal?
I think I will be ecstatic when I reach 55kg - 58kg. I can still remember how I felt before at this weight both mentally and physically so much lighter and happier. Also being able to move so much more gracefully and have no weight issues or health issues. Being able to wear what ever I want in my closet without spending time trying anything on. It’s going to be fantastic and so worth it!
Daily Affirmation
I can do this, mind over matter, I am a strong, beautiful, passionate and loving woman who can do anything if I set my mind on it. I deserve to be healthy and fit. All is possible and I will also achieve my goal weight by September 2020, no ifs ands or buts!
