Miri’s daily journal

[Miri]

1-7-17 I got married (in Europe, that is the first of July )

So while I am 117 hours into my fast, I decided to try on my wedding dress again.

I remember just how stressed I was that week because I actually could not zip up my wedding dress.

That morning of our wedding, with a lot of force, sweat and tears, I finally managed to squeeze in. I did not take it off until it was 5.00 the morning after, because I was so I would not be able to get back in

A Pregnancy later and this is where I stand right now:

Fifth day is nearing its end and it looks like I will actually make it through what is supposedly the worst day of EF…

Hopefully, from here on, I can keep my mind busy and my mouth closed

[Miri]

122 hours down And I’m off to bed… to that is officially done with day 5!

Im actually feeling pretty good! The hunger has been bearable, not too bad!

I’m looking forward to what is to come next… I will take it one day at a time, entering new territory here

[Esbyrose]

Awesome!! You’re on a roll!

[Miri]

So here is to the start of day 6!

I did not weigh at the total beginning of this fast on the 23rd of februari, but at the 26nd and now I kind of regret

But no matter what, it is not about how MUCH I lose in total, but THAT I actually lose it!

And right now, I am going DOWN! (4.1 kilos so far! 9 LBS!)

[Miri]

I AM going to lose 14 kilos of FAT these next 28 days whoop whoop

[edisonelectric]

You’ve got this mama!! You’ve come so far already <3

[Myhnabird]

Is that 9 lbs since you weighed on the 26th? 4 days? Wow!!! That’s really encouraging
Best of luck with the next 28 days!

[Miri]

9 lbs in the first 132 hours of fasting

[Miri]

144 hours have past

6 full days without eating and I am actually going to put our son to bed now…

Guess who is going to bed too? Yeah, me!

So I will be adding at least another 12 hours without food!

Here’s to day 7

[Miri]

157 hours in and I just got out of bed to experience day 7 of my fast!!

I can’t believe I made it to here seeing that I always stopped before reaching day 6.

Soooo, it is being said that the first 5 days are the hardest so from here on forwards, it should be easier.

Now, to be honest, I have not really had a big problem and I think it is because of the way I am going at it right now:
*taking fasting salts
*taking apple cider vinegar (liquid or gummies)
*coffee
*sparkling water and plenty of normal water
*herbal tea
*my motivational poster
*the March madness challenge
*EFT tapping to change my thoughts
*essential oil stick to curve hunger pangs

All in all I am totally focused and motivated, knowing really well WHY I am doing this and WHAT I can achieve in 30 days!

I’m posting my motivational poster again… notice anything different?

[Overcomer]

Excellent, well done on day 7.

[Esbyrose]

You’ve got some really great affirmations written on your calendar! Love them. Woo hoo! 11lbs you are on fire!

[Miri]

180 hours … hello week 2!!

Yesterday was a hell of a day. Not because of the fasting but because there were 4 different deliveries to our house at 4 different times and a little boy that badly needed his nap.

Boy, when he does not not sleep, live really becomes difficult and really hard to not grab anything lying around in the kitchen to stuff my face

But I did not give in.

I kept looking at my motivational poster, reading through all the affirmations on there, looking at the bright pink sticky at day 7 shouting 5 at me.

5 kilos gone in the first week, I HAVE to see this through!!

Not ever before did I do an extended waterfast this long!

And now I am becoming impatient. I can’t wait till another 3 weeks are gone and I have lost another 10 kilos!! Maybe even more!!!

I want to see what I am going to look like… feel like… how is it going to feel, moving around??? what if, what if I actually CAN fit in those jeans??

I sooo badly want to get there!

I am about 8 kilos away from my healthywage bet of $2228

Before this fast it seemed like an awful long way off but right now, I KNOW I can WIN.

I WILL WIN!!!

17 more days until the weigh in window opens and I am so going to try to be able to weigh out at first day!

In the next few days I am going to break through the 100 kilo barrier.

And guess what!?! It is NOT a barrier anymore! The weight of that number is gone! It is just another number in the scale with no particular significance! So in a way, I already crushed that, after being hung up about it for 20 years!!

The number 100 is now totally INSIGNIFICANT

[Myhnabird]

It’ll be so satisfying, using some of your winnings to buy clothes to fit your newly svelte self!

[Miri]

Still a long ways off … so I’ll be waiting buying a new wardrobe

Going to put the winnings to paying off our mortgage so that will mean less monthly fees… also very satisfying

[Miri]

I almost can’t believe it, but I just finished day 8

Almost 193 hours into this fast and about to go to bed so I’ll wake up halfway day 9

So far it has been pretty easy, not sure why this time it is so much different from my other tries and I am really careful not to take it too easy and suddenly find myself mindlessly stuffing my face again

I just did my EFT tapping which is starting to feel less strange to me in comparison to when I first started.

at times I just can’t wrap my head around it, how is it possible to not eat for this long and not be all that hungry!?

But then I start imagining my body munching away at all that fat that I have accumulated over the years. It is having a ball at this huge feast I have been preparing them all this time.

Keep going! Still plenty where that came from!

[Esbyrose]

It’s been a lot easier for me as well. It’s true what they say-that you have to train your fasting muscle and then it will become easier. It took me 2 years of training my fasting muscle to make it past 6 days and to feel as comfortable as I have been. And the support here is a huge help mentally!
You are killing it and inspiring people!!

[Miri]

Oh boy oh boy I had such a rough night… my son woke up at 1.30 am and could not sleep again… I was up with him until he finally fell asleep 3 hours later but now it is 7 am and up again, completely broken so I don’t really feel all that inspiring

Nights like this make for horrible though days

First thing I did was get on the scale to see I lost another kilo… now that does mean a little spark of hope

1,5 kilos away for the 100 mark, I will crush that this weekend for sure!

[Miri]

Almost ending day 8

No hunger and I’m actually okay not eating for now.

However, the mind game is certainly starting to creep up!

So here is the thing.

I don’t really care about the number of days I have to reach. I don’t care if it is 14 days, 19, 30, 42 whatever. That number is totally insignificant, seeing that I am fasting for me and not competing with anybody.

I do care about ultimately reaching my goal: green numbers on my Renpho scale. Whether that be in April, May, September … as long as it is THIS year!

But first off: my number one goal at present is to get below 93,6 kilos between March 20 and April 3. In fact, I have decided to at least fast till I have successfully weighed in and have that result verified.

So now my internal dialogue is really taking over my mind.

I could continue after that… going below 90, 85, maybe even 80, … ie, fast till goal weight.

I could continue throughout the whole of March and then start slowly refeeding, so that on my birthday (April 12) I can feast with my husband and son and then go on an ADF schedule, to reach my ultimate goal.

No idea what is going to make me happiest…

No idea either how long fasting to goal weight is going to take now what would be best for me.

And absolutely no idea how disciplined I can be during refeeding or how much I will gain back in that process…

A lot to ponder still, for the coming 2 plus weeks

[Overcomer]

Yes, it can be overwhelming, when you are not too stressed about it, it will probably help to have a refeed plan when you get nearer to your decided refeed date.
Make a list of what you can eat etc.
For now, let’s keep fasting and not worry too much. Have a blessed evening.