I just joined this forum a few days ago and at the moment I am 52 hours into my fast. I have set the Life app to 504 hours (21 days) which might be pretty presumptious seeing that so far my longest fast has been 3 days.
I am a SAHM and live in the Netherlands.
I have been overweight for “all my life”. Better said: I was told to be overweight ever since I can remember.
Actually did my first diet at the age of 12 when going to high school. I can really remember well, a 10 day juice fast.
Starting weight was 69 kilos at 1.74m, which by no means was overweight!!
But I felt fat and was called fat and learned throughout all my childhood that fat people are no good. So I felt no good.
Needless to say, my weight spirallled up after every diet I followed.
In between diets I tried to fill up the voids, eat away all the insecurities, and tried to feel happier by stuffing my face.
“WHY” - Why am I doing this?
Which brings me to my WHY. At the moment I weight 105.6 kilos. Which is a BMI of 35. I started losing weight for the umpppft time this past August and so far I am 13 kilos down.
Our little boy is 1,5 years old and I want to be healthy. Strong. Fit. Energetic. Lean. And the best mom I can be for as long as possible.
What are my long term and short term goals?
When I started this past August, I set up different bets to lose weight. One of which was to lose 25 kilos in 8 months. That seemed doable. But it would also mean going below the magic 100 kilos.
Something I have not done in 20 years.
My long term goal though, is to go back to 75 kilos.
What are some struggles I face or have faced in the past
Now that I have lost 13 and the 100 kilos is getting in sight, I noticed that I am having a really hard time to believe that I DO MATTER.
That I AM WORTHY. That I am CAPABLE. And that I CAN AND WILL lose all that fat.
What is My game plan?
My game plan is carnivore and waterfasting.
How do I feel right now?
Apart from a bit hungry at the moment, I feel determined. Hopeful. Energized.
How will I feel once you achieve your goal?
I am already feeling a lot stronger and fitter and can only imagine to feel even fitter than.
But also more confident.
I am really determined to make this work. To face my stuff. To work on my self image. To work on my personal mindset. To feel even more confident in my skin. To love myself.
Write down your daily positive affirmation:
I am strong, I am capable, I will get to weigh 75 kilos.
I am reading “Life in the Fasting Lane” by Jason Fung and loving it. So many aha moments that are now firing me up and actually pissing me off. Especially the part about how CICO does not work.
99% of people who follow a calorie restriction diet and lose weight, will gain that back within a year and then some.
I am pissed off because I have been told all my life that I “just” had to move more and eat less. And that because I wasnt able to do so (no self discipline, lazy and what not) I was not worthy. I was not able to be slim. Nor successful.
I see now that that has been the biggest lie and so many trainers, nutritionists and weight loss consultants still go by that mantra “move more eat less” and so many clients fail and feel worse every time. It really saddens me.
But I am so glad that I stumbled upon fasting again (I read his Obesity Code book years ago but wasn’t ready at that time)
And I am SOOOO glad that I found your youtube channel @Yasemin and your facebook group and this forum.
So now I am just going to plunge in.
Ah. So yeah, I kind of gotten myself in a pickle. I placed many many bets so that I would have to keep losing weight and make certain weigh outs. Yikes!
Right now it is 105.6
22nd of October I need to be below 104.6
27nd of October I need to be below 101.5 (and still weight below that the 29th)
After that I can breath a bit, but I do want to get below 100 as soon as I can.
Once I create this topic and get off of my computer, I will create a fasting calender in my bullet journal. My roadmap to follow.
I do want to reach 21 days. Even though that means I won’t be able to eat on my moms birthday. And even though that means I will still be refeeding when my husband will be celebrating his 40th birthday. So be it.
But I need to plan this.