Kristy's Journal

[Kristy]

#Buddhist thing

Right now my whole experience is focused on The Four Sublime Experiences and Tonglen meditation/practice.

1. loving-kindness or benevolence (maitrī/metta)
2. compassion (karuna)
3. empathetic joy (mudita)
4. equanimity (upekṣā/upekkha)

I’m also looking into the works of Byron Katie. Every year my brothers and I do a “read” harder challenge. My goal is 100 books (that’s very easy for me.) But my goal is to read 3 great courses, 2 books on other religions, 5 classics I haven’t read in a while, 2 memoirs (I really don’t like memoirs), at least 10 books from from other countries (1 from each continenet), books from a wide range of people of color, the lgbtqai community and grrrr… at least 1 romance book that ISNT jane austen. maybe a few cozy mysteries.

[Kristy]

This is not how I wanted to “fast” I am consuming a bit of coconut oil and heavy cream ( like barely a slash in the day and several big spoonfuls at night with my medication for absorption). Nausea, vomiting, and wooshes are are a symptom of the migraines. I lived on the toiled yesterday. Not asking for a pity party and I’m not upset or suffering needlessly. Lost 3 plus lbs. Looking for solutions. Darkness helps prevent my eyes feeling like they are rolling around in glass and most facial pain. Easy fix.

Neurologist upped my topiramate but it can take time kick in. Taking my anti nausea meds which I think is preventing things from coming up and just going down… super cut back on Coffee my main god of worship. I hope she forgives me and I will pay homage later. Keeping up on electrolytes but woke up in the night super dehydrated. Could only sleep a couple hours more after chugging some water.

Any ideas on this community? Haven’t eaten any real foods in 3 days. Should I switch from coconut oil to butter? Yum butter…

Keto mojo was running an awesome deal where I could recycle my old device for their updated new one and only had to pay for return shipping! Very excited! It syncs up with my phone and also tracks blood sugar.

Got an eye dr appointment for the tinted glasses! Dog sitter is coming today so I can spend the afternoon on hold with the insurance company.

But the best news of all is that the pool opened! If I’m able I’ll swim Saturday. I don’t care if I have to take serious pain meds- swimming! haven’t checked my ketones today but sure it’s higher than it’s been lately

[Cate_Alexandra]

I might be the wrong part of this community but I’d say oil over butter. The fats are different, broken down and metabolised differently, effect the blood vessels differently ect

Totally understand your feeling of not fasting ‘properly’. But … fasting is a healing process in itself. Not taking in food that needs digesting, giving your body room to heal. If the oil and occasional coffee means you can take medication you NEED then that’s the healthiest and kindest choice for your body. The stricter fasts come with patience, practice and health. Yeah you can do it now, but you’ll spend it asleep, in bed, or struggling.
With the oil and meds your living as well as fasting.

Super pleased your pool is opening soon and your still getting the treatments you need. Hopefully it’ll tie in all the positive things your doing for your body now.

[Kristy]

I was totes just reply to your journal <3

[Miramar]

@Kristy

I spent a good portion of yesterday exploring and contemplating the Buddhist “emptiness” or “no-self”… woah. I have a deeper understanding why many faiths have a spiritual initiation practice involving fasting, sleep deprivation, and psychedelics to have a sacred moment/experience with whatever they consider divine.

Dr joe dispenzas meditations go into being a noTHING and a noBODY.

One has to de attach to move to another vibration.

[Kristy]

Hahaha although this was interesting and his point of view is also interesting the fact of the matter was that I was totally high

Even de attach is an attachment and concept. It’s beyond me. Can’t muster up a clear thought feeling this dehydrated. If I thought it would help I would actually try Gatorade but I know it would make me feel worse! Any recommendations? Not pickle juice- that sounds like it would come right back up. Even though it is soooooo yummy otherwise

[Kristy]

On my quest to read 100 books this year I was revisiting the obesity code while having woosh tummy problems on my porcelain throne yesterday. Dr Fung recommended chia seeds, which I love, so I immediately bloomed a couple of tablespoons spoons of them in some hot herbal tea with a pinch of salt and poof no more epic wooshes! I also blended them up with a hot cup of water with a couple of table spoons of cream because at this point I was hella faint. I technically “fasted” for 80ish hours but since it was medically induced and not really my choice I’ll call it a quasi win.

I woke up in the middle of the night ravenous! I ate 2 slices of cheese, about a liter of h2o, 3 big things of seaweed, and a couple of parm crisps with a dollop of sour cream. I’m still stuffed. I kept it all down! Small victories!

Still locked in the dark basement. Exercising a lot. A bit sore but it feels great. Took a long Luke warm epsom salt bath yesterday. Light still makes my eyes feel like they’re rolling around in broken glass. Neurologist straight up doubled the topiramate. Starting to get more forgetful and experiencing mild aphesia but being pain free will be worth it until we can find a more sustainable solution.

Not sure when I’ll need to eat next. I need to have a more serious conversation about fasting with my husband. The topiramate kills my desire to eat. And I’m going to use that opportunity. He understands fastings and I’ve been IF for ages but longer periods might scare him. Does this amazing community have any advice on how to have a good conversation about this?

Love you people!

[Kristy]

Didn’t eat yesterday. Just some ground up chia seeds, heavy cream, and coconut oil in my coffee. Then coconut oil with meds. On hour 30 something of this fast. Have vowed to eat when hubby gets home from work. Want someone to be home to watch the dogs in case I explode or something. Food smells wonderful and tea still taste great so I’m happy about that.

Was 2.8mmol yesterday lost another lb. yesterday was very gloomy and not as bright but the dogs high pitch barks got to me a bit.

After the attempted coop of the USA government I commissioned 4 silk scrolls with the Buddhist sublime states on them. Yesterday it was my duty to practice sympathetic joy and compassion. Not sure I “succeeded” but I tried.

Talked to hubby about eating less. He understands. Especially since it may potentially really upset my tummy

Sun is rising. Time for the bat cave!

[Kristy]

Feeling soooo much better today. Able to be in the light more! Also I ate food! I had 2 slices keto bread dipped in some hard boiled eggs mashed with Mayo, celery, peppers, a very healthy dose of olive oil, and and big scoop of flax meal. Soo yummy. Will probably not be able to eat for a day or two but I’ve been exercising really really hard and needed to get something in me. Took some digestive enzymes before I ate and some pepto too…

Keep your fingers cross I don’t explode

[Sbrannan]

Have you tried psyllium husk? Fasting (usually my Magnesium citrate tablets) really aggravates my tummy and I’ve found lepicol to be a God send (not sure what the US version is, buts it’s essentially ground down psyllium husk, I mix 2tsp with my ACV in the mornings and it’s definitely helped. Unfortunately magnesium citrate seems to be the most commonly available magnesium supplement here and it’s mixed with my Vitamin D capsules (180 to get through and I abhor waste so stuck with them), magnesium oxide is gentler on the gut.
There is a documentary on Fasting on Amazon Prime. I had my husband watch it when I first started. He’s since had his mum watch and also completed a 3 day fast himself last summer.

[Kristy]

I try glucomanann from the Konjack root. It’s the exact same thing for all intents and purposes but me a psyllium husks never got along. No idea why they make my tummy sloshy. Chia seems to have fixed me right up though! I totally have to find that video on prime! Thank you so much for the recommendations!

[Kristy]

No sleep again. Grrr. Got a good deep clean of the upstairs done though. Data does not like the broom

Going to talk to my neurologist about maybe doing a sleep study. I can’t remember the last time I did one. Might be time for a check up.

No food today except cream, oil, mct, and chia seed. I want to see how my tummy does today. I feel a bit hungry but also nausea. Exhausted. Have been able to nap in the afternoons. That’s a big no no for someone that is unable to sleep through the nights but I literally just fall asleep wherever so I don’t have much say in the matter.

Unlike my previous experience on topiramate my taste and smell are extremely heightened. Even if food isn’t tempting the smells are spectacular. This may change at a higher dosage but I am enjoying it now.

Gonna work out like there is no tomorrow later. When I get really sleepy I bounce on this yoga ball. I hold a toy and my puppy tries to catch it. Pure gold! Ran out of keto strips so I don’t know my Mmol.

Cold all the time. Excited for the pool tomorrow. Not excited for 2 hours in the car with the sun. I’ve got some serious sun glasses but… it will be worth it regardless.

Period should start next week and having almost no pms symptoms! A little tender. Total 180!

Inside 1 person physical activity ideas? I’m going to be going to a Dick’s sporting goods store next Friday and might pick some stuff up. I totes need new “gym” shoes.

[riallyst]

@Kristy

Inside 1 person physical activity ideas?

Maybe some balance/stability training equipment? Can also be used for rehab and physical therapy.

[Cate_Alexandra]

Yoga and callesthetics are good when your eating reduced kcals and still trying to maintain or build stamina.
Planks… Are also an excellent all rounder x

[Kristy]

Yoga and calisthenics are my all time favorite. I am not reducing calories. I do not believe in CICO. My problem is that when I want to eat the food doesn’t stay in… ewww!

I ate 2 say it again 2 meals yesterday! They were mostly celery and egg paste with olive oils but it was something. Took all the keep the food down meds first. Hope it stays that way cause imma swim today!

[Cate_Alexandra]

You may not be intentionally reducing your kcals… But your body is inflicting it upon on is what I mean. And that you still have to consider that

[Kristy]

Exactly! You’re totes right. According to the wonderful dr fung that will slow my metabolism down even more but w/e.

My planks are only like 15 sec atm. I’ve been mostly bed bound for a year so I’m working back up to whatever my new limit will be. Core strength is important to me since I have so many back problems. I tried to do a wall sit the other day and my dogs thought I was playing. So. Funny. Nearly peed my pants. I love the TRX. Functional movement is my favorite but I’m not sure if I got one where I’d put it or if I’m strong enough to use it yet without injuring myself. The temptation would be high. Some people can’t pass up a bag of chips (me) some people also can’t pass up gym equipment (also me)

I have to cultivate patience that I not strong or balanced enough to use my bosu ball yet

[Cate_Alexandra]

I can completely relate to this hahaha so eager to be fit and strong again I push through and end up injuring myself or triggering fatigue. I spent about 8 months asleep last year too June till December was basically in bed feeling very poorly.

Patience is definitely a daily skill with chronic conditions, building up slowly and varying the body movements to keep it slow and paced and building strength and stamina slowly.
Have you had a go at Pilates?? Or Tai chi… Their both my go to when I’m pushing too hard, because their hard on their own if your doing them properly and feel like your working hard too

[Kristy]

Kinda feel like we’re twins! Unfortunately no Pilates anywhere near me in middle of no where Iowa. Isn’t it so fun!

Tai chi is also great but kinda impossible to do with 3 dogs (1 a puppy). I am able to do some sitting stretches though and chair yoga! But- you’ve given be an awesome idea! If I can go to the pool again I can do some tai chi in the pool! Your brilliant thank you- it would really help with my joints. Woohoo!

[Kristy]