Hello, Fellow Fasters!
I am Cindy, 4’11 and currently 144.0 lbs. My family cultures emphasized my body weight/looks throughout my life and heavily influenced the way I saw myself and food. There was a lot confusion, shame, and negative messages about food such as: “A minute on your lips is a lifetime on your hips,” “Should you be eating seconds?”, “Butter/bread/pizza/chocolate is bad for you/going to make you fat,” etc. The second question or comment from relatives after saying “hi” was “you’ve gained weight” or “are you fat or skinny?” (if on a phone call). While on the other hand, food was at the center of many celebrations such as birthdays, holidays, and exclamations of “eat some more!” Needless to say, I have food and body issues.
I have chosen to find my own path to health and find a community that is doing the same. I’ve read research articles on fasting and testimonials of people who have benefited from a fasting lifestyle. Fasting is not new to me. The most of I have fasted were rolling 72 hours/low carb/Keto refeeds. I want more accountability and motivation to help me stay on track! At my current weight, I have noticed a lot of body aches that were not there before (feet/ankles/knees/back), dry and sensitive skin, lack of energy, mood swings, poor sleep, and food addiction. I’m hoping that fasting will improve these symptoms and especially get a handle on my food addiction. Also, diabetes and stomach cancer runs on both sides of my family.
Long Term and Short Term Goals:
Long term: get from BMI obese to BMI “Normal”, better relationship with food and my body
Short term: be at a healthy weight range
For the past year or so, I struggled to fast longer than 24 hours. I would get motivated, write down my ‘whys,’ keep a journal and start…but then I had no mental discipline. Food “helps” me when I’m bored or tired. Sometimes I feel irritated or resentful that I’m restricting myself, so I break my fast and say to hell with it. It’s also easier to fast when I live alone and right now I do not.
Anyways, I’m happy to have a fasting forum for support and hope that I can support people on their journey as well! Talk to y’all later