21 - Water Fast Journey Lilly

#1

Hi!
First of all I’m very thankful to finally find a platform like this where I can share my experiences, thoughts and my whole journey to people who can relate!
My name is Lilly and since I can remember I’m having problems with food. As I was little all I could think about is food, overate a lot and up until now I was never able to build a healthy and normal relationship with food and my body. My love for food and my obsession of my appearance never worked well together and at the end, I can’t even count how many times I wanted to be strict, cut out sweets but never managed it to stick to it. The last years I spent every second of my life so far having an inner fight against food and myself and never felt good about myself. I could continue writing how many times I failed, but it would take too long. What counts is that 2020 is going to be the year for me where I´ll finally move out, get my life together and start LIVING without fighting against food. Feeling good about myself. Stop hiding. Being proud and accomplished about myself. Finally ending this weight loss chapter. Although this means everything for me I still am not disciplined enough and failed too many times. I’m just so tired and wanna stop this and ACT now!!!

When it comes to my Diet and Stuff…
I was vegan, vegetarian, paleo, intermitten fasting, one meal a day, fasting up until 3 days …
But, never was consistent!!! And consistency is the key for success!!

This Monday I was so serious, felt amazing starting this fast and I wanted to do it for 14 days. And guess what? I gave in yesterday, and cheated today as well.
It feels like there is a voice in my head who tells me that I can’t do it and gonna fail anyway and always be stuck in this.

But the next 21 day fast means everything to me. It is so serious to finally after all those years, be done with dieting and start fueling my body right!
I wanna share my journey here and hopefully receive some support from you that I actually can do it!

I´ll start the 21 Water Fast on next Monday the 24th February until the 15th March.
Right now I’m around 50kg and my goal is to loose 10kg. I know its a lot but I’m short.

At first I’m always good, drinking a lot of water but I always fail after two or three days because I can’t resist those cravings.

Thanks for your support and I´ll keep you updated about everything!
Its time to feel good and proud!

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#2

Welcome to the forum.
I believe you always get what you want. If you want to know what you want, look around you and you are looking at it. Everything there is a result of choices you made to get what you want. Now, after you get what you want, it often turns out that it really wasn’t what you thought it would be, so you try again and again. If you want to fast, you fast. If you want to eat, you eat. It is not a matter of failure, it is a matter of taking responsibility for your choices. In my head, I often think I want something, but in reality, it often turns out to be something else. It is all a part of self discovery.
Good luck.:grin:

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#3

Thanks for your respond! Yes you’re totally right, I’m the only one who is capable for my decisions and for what I truly want. I´ll start fasting tomorrow instead of Monday because I’m just really determined to end this chapter and finally feel better.

#4

For everyone who is reading this, I would be so grateful for support and feedback! I don’t only wanna do this for weight loss reasons but also to physically heal my relationship with binging and my overall health. I’m doing this for myself, my body, my health and to make myself proud!

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#5

Since I binged yesterday I already put pressure on myself that I needed to start this fast today. But when I woke up this morning, I felt sluggish and wasn’t in a good mood. In the past I would always fast after I binged for only two days, binge and fast again… Because of this horrible cycle fasting was a torture and pain for myself and not an exiting journey.

But now my mindset has changed. I don’t do this anymore to hurt myself, I wanna do this fast to prove myself that I’m strong and determined to reach my goals! I wanna see this fast as a positive journey, where I´ll grow mentally and physically! I wanna be motivated, enjoy the time, be in a good mood and hype myself up!

I will never achieve my goals if my mind works again me! I´m doing this journey for myself and therefore I wanna enjoy everything of it!

I´m using this weekend to prepare my body for this fast and therefore I´ll stick to drinking fresh pressed juices and load up on a ton of vitamins.
Mentally I’m also preparing myself, going out in the nature, seeking for positivity, strength and willpower, educating myself more about all of the different stages of fasting and what’s actually going to happen inside of my body and how to react.

By Monday I just wanna be super motivated and hyped for this upcoming 30 day fast! I wanna feel the right energy and power to keep this promise to myself up and actually succeed!!!

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#6

“Mini Goal” Week 1
24.02-1.03.2020

…hopefully extend to do this 21 day group fast!:white_heart:
2.03.2020-21.02.2020

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#7

Good job breaking it into mini-goals. Better chance of success that way.

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#8

But my brain starts telling myself again that I won’t succeed anyway. I think I can’t even imagine actually losing this weight, since I’ve been stuck at the same place for too long. I’m just so scared to fail again because this had happened too many times already. :pleading_face::pleading_face:

#9

Re-reading your first entry it seems you have a carb/sugar addiction. If it’s not addressed it causes cravings during fasts and binging during refeeds. I did a 14-day Potato diet to break my addiction before I did any fasting and to change my taste palate,

@Anna also did a 10 day potato diet before she did her fasts. She completed a 30-day fast in December.

Here’s the YouTube video that got me started. The reasons I liked it is NO counting calories, eat as much as I wanted whenever I wanted:

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#10

First of all thank you for your respond, it feels very good to talk with someone about this. For me its kind of difficult. I always loved eating healthy, enjoyed fueling my body in the right way and eating Whole Foods.
But when it comes to dieting and restrictions I start craving sugar :tired_face:

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#11

Today is the day. My first fasting day of 30. I’ve already had so many first attempts for diets and fasts, but this time its different. I made this commitment to myself and I wanna make myself proud and stick to it!
22.02-22.03

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#12

Hey Lilly…well done you :clap:t4: I’m starting my fast once I wake up tomorrow morning so in about 12 hours time.

I’m trying for a 5 day fast. Maybe we can support each other?

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#13

Yes I would love to support each other!

#14

I’ve been feeling very sick so far. I think I have a flu or something and its definitely not because of fasting.:sneezing_face:

#15

I had to break my fast because I was almost passing out. I feel very ill and therefore I’m trying to get fit again on this weekend. Taking medication and resting a lot. I wanted to do this fast so badly but I wanna be fit and prepared if I’m starting it.
Next week is all about preparation. Very light foods and low carb/cut out sugar. I guess this might be better for myself to actually start the fast on the first march.
What do u think about this plan?

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#16

Still not feeling better but I’m going early to bed, had tea and took medication against the cold. I hope I’m feeling better due the beginning of next week because I finally wanna start my journey and be strict!
My plan is to make a mini goal and do a small 6 day fast from Monday till Saturday.
Then I´ll have something very light before starting the 21 day Group Fast!

I still do struggle with believing in myself that I actually am going to be able to do this. On the one sight I’m really determined to stop this lifestyle which I am right now and actually do something against it. There are no excuses for me anymore and I have to act, otherwise I´ll be unhappy for the rest of my life. Yes, it is going to be hard, but I’m strong and in control!

#17

Here is what I think. You experienced a drop in your blood sugar. Sugar is an addiction and you will suffer withdrawal symptoms from sugar just as you will from any other drug. I suggest you withdraw from sugar as a seperate task. Read Compdude’s potatoe diet to see how to do it. He just started a two week potatoe “fast” to clear his system for a water fast. By eating just potatoes, you can kick the sugar habit and not starve yourself. Do not be discouraged. Do not stop trying. This is your life. Live it.:yum:

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#18

Thank you so much for your respond! I think this would be a great idea and I won’t stop trying until I succeed! I finally wanna start LIVING and stop those addictions.

#19

Ive been feeling a lot better today and less sick! Educating myself more on fasting and preparing myself mentally for my first long fast is really helping me, looking forward positive!
Since I have the freedom to stay at home atm I can fully enjoy the next weeks, read a lot, do drawing, turn off social media, going out in the nature and just focusing on my body, health and goals!

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#20

I’m finally getting really motivated for my fast!!! I feel super exited and hyped about finally doing something and changing!!!

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