Everyday I have been struggling to fight my “inner pig”. For MONTHS. I have relapse into poor habits. I see the difference in my workouts and gym performance. I started being a server last year to save up and open my own business. Sadly the pandemic, a move and 50lbs later I’m a ducking mess. Yes a whole duck of a mess. I’m tired, sluggesh, irritated and just plain defeated. I’m crying out to all supports. Fighting this inner pig alone (well accompanied by a very loving spouse who rather see me fed and happy than struggling and fasting) BUT RIP THE BANDAGE OFF I MUST!! Being heavy destroys so much of my self worth, though should not be where it is placed, it is. I’m over being this heavy angry human being. Over pig slop and the slop it created on my body. SO TO DUCKING DAY ONE AGAIN. Weighting in over a whopping 235 pounds, fat, sassy, and frustrated. IM BACK I hit that timer at 8am and got to writing my 30 reasons why, in here and making up TWO spots in the house for stickies!! Plus wrote out my affirmations on my bathroom mirror with my goals aside them! I was down to the 160, I can do this again, with the right mindset and the PIG placed away with all his pig slop! 
Beginning Stats:
Weight 236.9 GOAL 145
BF 32.3% GOAL 20%
Visceral Fat 19 GOAL 4