Hello,
I registered in this forum some time ago because I was interested in fasting, was searching for forums that were dedicated for and focused on fasting, but unsuccessfully until I came across “Fast Forward”. I registered but never came in to post anything.
Here I am today.
I am sure that I will elaborate more in my daily entries during fasting but there are few things that I want to get out of the way in advance.
Last three years were the worst in terms of my health. From August 2017 all the way to the present day. I have developed an eating disorder (bulimia) and got diagnosed with mild depression.
I know that some of you might think that someone who has an eating an eating disorder and experiences episodes of depression should not fast. I also know that what you are about to read in the next line will sound very cliche for you but anyways:
Fasting for me makes more sense now than ever before. It simply feels right because I have this desire to shock myself out of the behavioural pattern of binging and purging which currently is in charge of everything in my day-to-day being.
I am also tired of it. Physically primarily and then, I am tired emotionally. I want for my body to have some rest in hope that it will begin to heal itself physically. Then, maybe I will become more brave to address the psychological part of my eating disorder?..
I will use Yasemin’s blank printable fasting tracker to mark the days of fasting and track my eating afterwards.
When I posted a comment in “Fast forward” group on “Facebook”, Yasemin replied to it asking to tag her when I start my journal. So, here I go. @Yasemin
It is late evening on Friday at the time of me typing this. I am starting my fast tomorrow and I aim to fast for 14 days. I haven’t prepared for fasting really. I ate way too much yesterday and today and I have not purged after eating. For the first time in three years.
I will see what tomorrow will be like.
I believe in you, in overcoming this. Some people like traditional therapy, some people don’t like it, so just be safe, and be open and honest with someone you trust if you are struggling