Tiffs daily journal

Tiffstevens77 · July 12, 2020, 5:30am

WHY
I want to live life again I stopped going places going anywhere actually because of my weight problem, i’ve also put a stop on my kids life not taking them and going places because I didn’t feel like getting dressed because my clothes in fit and I was embarrassed of the way I look. I want to live I want to take my children places and enjoy life with them I want to feel desirable once again. My marriage has suffered because of my weight issues. And most of all I don’t want to be so afraid of covid since obese individuals are high risk.

LONG TERM and SHORT TERM GOALS
Long term goal - To weigh 130 pounds by November 2020
Short term - To complete a 30 day water fast starting July 23, 2020 and then a 2nd 30 water fast right after starting August 27 2020

WHAT ARE SOME STRUGGLES YOU FACE OR FACED IN THE PAST
Currently here, I am afraid of Covid because Im Obese and obese people are high risk, high so I am constantly in fear and know if I was healthy weight I would be much less afraid.
I’ve also stopped living because of my weight I have been quarantining before Covid, I have been ashamed and embarrassed to go to events, to take my kids to the park to the pools, to socialize to go to parties due to my weight.

WHAT IS MY GAME PLAN
I want to get rid of this weight issue ASAP that’s just how I feel and that’s where I am at. So my game plan 2 meals a day for one week then Omad for one week and then July 23 I will start a 30 day water fast, then I will re-feed for five days, then I will go into another 30 day water fast , from there I will do omad for the remainder of my weight loss what a small 10 day water fast in November 2020 And will weigh 130 pounds

HOW DO I FEEL RIGHT NOW
Excited and they little scared but really I’m just ready to be done with this weight issue

HOW WILL I FEEL
Sooooo happy, set free, alive, Beautiful, fearless, and excited for my life

DAILY AFFIRMATIONS
Enough is enough, I can do this I will do this I am beautiful and strong and will weigh 130 pounds by November 2020 no if and or butts about it!

Yasemin · July 12, 2020, 4:53pm

This whole journal is complete fire!!!

Game Plan:
Week 1: 2MAD ~ 1400-1500 cal per day
Week 2: OMAD ~ 1400-1500 cal per day
Week 3: Water Fast - LET’S DO IT!
Week 4: TBD - Option: Extend Water Fast

Tiffstevens77 · July 13, 2020, 2:54am

Today I feel good. I been doing low carb 2 meals a day since 4 days and today I felt a lot less hungry and craving like I did the other days so that great! I’m starting to feel like this is something I can keep up with

schmidtsmia · July 13, 2020, 11:25am

This sounds like a great plan, and doable…hard but doable. I am on a similar journey, minus the little kids. I am starting my second 21 day fast, and if I feel good, I might even extend it. First I have to get through day 1, lol! I look forward to seeing the changes you are making. I wish you all the success you can imagine for yourself.

Tiffstevens77 · July 14, 2020, 5:05am

Thank you soooo much! Congrats on what you accomplished already 21 days very cool and good luck on you next!

Tiffstevens77 · July 14, 2020, 5:14am

Today was difficult for me I really really wanted carbs And was feeling depressed but I got tru with thanks to Yasemin💛
Today 1st meal I ate a chicken chopped salad with coffee
Calories 430 carbs 14
2nd meal I made salmon and salad but I hated it and couldn’t get myself to eat it so then I made cheesy eggs with chicken and protein drink that was
Calories 592 carbs 8 g
Tomorrow I’m going to be more serious about no sweeteners and stop diet soda and only drink water and seltzer water.
My positive affirmation is I am beautiful I weigh 128 pounds!

schmidtsmia · July 14, 2020, 3:21pm

Yup…the process can be hard and even messy, but in the end, the affirmations do become our reality, so let’s keep our eye on the ball, right? Getting off the diet soda will be such a help. Until tomorrow! You are strong, beautiful and a GREAT mother!

Tiffstevens77 · July 17, 2020, 4:20am

Thank you I really really appreciate that! Specially the great mother part I think every mother always feels like they r not measuring up. And affirmations yes I do believe they work I believe affirmations as what a part of what got me here always calling myself fat when I was not, now I’m going to use affirmations to make myself then I am beautiful and away 132 pounds that’s what I want to tell myself throughout the day

Tiffstevens77 · July 17, 2020, 4:22am

Today was good today I started omad, it was fine it wasn’t hard eating later than I normally have been eating also helps I eat at 6:30 but normally I was eating my last meal at 4:30 and eating later help me stay happier throughout the evening. I see that I need to plan my meals better, I’ve got to work on that Because I feel like I don’t have enough food To really make me feel satisfied

schmidtsmia · July 17, 2020, 10:05am

Well done!!! And I loved learning from Yasemin that one can be really helped by PLANNING what one will eat, in advance. Anything on the plan IS allowed, and NO eating off the plan. If one eats SLOWLY, that means either use chopsticks, or using a fork (and putting it down after eat bite), chew thoroughly, and swallow before picking up the fork, or using the chopsticks again, then after 20 minutes the stomach WILL be full. It is phsiological. If one stuffs 5 kg. of food into the stomach OR 500 gm. into the stomach in a 20 minute time, the body sends out chemical messengers, like Ghrelin, to the brain, that the hunger is sated. Those are my strategies, as I was not being conscious while eating. Do not watch tv, computer, read phone messages, etc while eating. One overeats very easily when one is not conscious. And enjoy whatever you put in your mouth. Much love, and my affirmations today and every day, is to make at least 3 grateful sentences, and repeat them outloud…i.e., “I am grateful that my body is able to heal.” Bye for now! Much love, Mary Joy

Tiffstevens77 · July 18, 2020, 5:24am

Great tips thanks a lot! Yes I normally alway watch tv, play with my phone while eating but have been trying to quite that and focus on just eating . Thanks for your support! Sending best wishes your way

Tiffstevens77 · July 18, 2020, 5:27am

Today I did omad and it went well but I did eat so much today I felt so stuffed! But it’s nice to feel really full and not hungry before bed. I’m realizing I don’t like food as much as I used to I think food is losing its power over me at least I hope it is crossed fingers. Still having a problem quitting the diet soda I really wanna quit it I really do but I just still really want one while eating my one meal a day And continuously give in I’ll try again tomorrow maybe to quit the diet soda

schmidtsmia · July 18, 2020, 4:40pm

Yes, one day at a time! Diet soda is very seductive, right? I tried for months to do an extended fast, and couldn’t get past 48 hours, at the very most…until now. Keep intending that you are ending this addiction, and you will be free yourself.
Tomorrow IS truly another, new day.