Intro
Hi everyone. I’m 35 years old and I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been at 260lbs and 5’7". Over the years I’ve developed bad habits and an unhealthy relationship with food. Being a mama of young kids I got into the bad habit of grazing off their plates, binging at night, eating take out frequently, having a sedentary lifestyle and not working out consistently. My husband has health issues and is often frequently in and out of the hospital. When that happens, we often cope by overindulging in food together as an attempt to feel better about the situation.
I have tried every diet under the sun and have been losing/gaining the same 20 pounds for over a year now. For some reason I always sabotage my progress. I did a 7 day water fast last month, lost 11 pounds, fell into bad habits again and regained everything quickly. Back to square one again. It’s so frustrating.
Why
I want to be able to keep up with my kids without being winded or having pain in my joints. Currently, I never have any energy and all I want to do is sleep every spare minute I have.
I’m tired of squishing myself into uncomfortable corsets and shapewear in order to feel better about myself. I want to feel beautiful, confident and sexy everyday.
Long term/short term goals
Long term - BMI morbid obese to “overweight”. I want to be a curvy/toned 170lbs before summer 2020.
Short term - By January 2020 I want to get to my pre pregnancy weight of 220lbs.
Once I get under 200lbs I will get a second ear piercing. This will be a constant reminder to myself of all the blood, sweat, and tears I had to go through to get to onederland. Once I’m there I never want to allow myself to go over 200lbs again.
Struggles I’ve faced in the past
Dreading any event because I would try on 50 items of clothing and get exasperated because nothing fit the way I wanted it to
I’ve felt like I’ve had no control over food. Often eating small amounts infront of people then hiding and binging by myself. I’ve learned the hard way what you eat in private, you wear in public.
Game plan
I plan to do an extended water fast starting Oct 28, 2020 for as long as I can. I’m shooting for 21 days. I will have 1 premier protein shake per day during my refeed and then work into a combination of alternate day fasting and omad dirty keto.
How do I feel right now?
Hopeful
How will I feel once I achieved my goal?
Proud and elated
Positive affirmations
I am in control of myself in every way, at all times and in all situations.
I am strong in mind and body.
I am capable and responsible for my health.
Everyday I’m moving closer to my ideal weight and becoming a better me.
I deserve to be happy and reach my goals.
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