Now or never

[sallycat]

Hello! 2020…amiright…

I need a physical and mental cleanse to rejuvenate and do a hard reboot.

I’ll begin tomorrow.

Basics: I’m in CA, currently work full time (remotely), and recovering from a marriage separation and a move across the country.
I am in therapy twice a week, and my cat is my best friend. Oh, I also live with my parents since my marriage dissolved and I lost my soulmate. Can you tell I’m recovering from a broken heart? Well, I seem to have lost myself, my marbles, and my body in the process. So I am going to make something new and beautiful.

My goal had been 22 days, after randomly reading a blog about how a 22 day water taste changed someone’s life. I’ve fasted before, but I’m rusty. I will start with a ten day goal and then go from there.

Thanks for popping in!

[Compdude]

Welcome to our fasting community!

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Question: Have you finished grieving? The reason I ask is that people still undergoing the stress of grieving get over stressed when they tack on the stress of fasting and drop out. I tell those that still are that they should finish the grieving process first before tackling fasting.

Sounds like you’ve made great progress though.

[MR.UpsAndDowns]

Best of luck, and you’ll be fine. Set and strive for new personal goal, and love yourself now more than you’ve ever loved your almost soulmate or loved before. The world is yours hope you see that. Hope this fast is the beginning to a new happy healthy better loving you.

[sallycat]

Hello and thank you! I will definitely need to be mindful bc I am working through my grieving still. I had the court date technically in January, but moved out in August of last year. I stopped working through the pain, and I didn’t make any emotional progress. I don’t feel like I have grown through the pain and personally evolved. I will need to stay mindful about your words though, bc I was hoping this fast would give me the change I need to stop numbing and face the pain. Really be present.

[sallycat]

Thank you very much. Your message gives me faith that i will get stronger.

[sallycat]

Day 1: Thursday 6/25-> the fresh start

Success! I was definitely tired throughout the day, and was very emotional. I’m doing my best to be compassionate with myself. This time is painful, but I have faith and not just hope that I have hit “my wall of truth” and this is my fresh start.

Grateful I had therapy today! I’ve been journaling a lot, which is helping me reflect on why I am doing this.

Each day I will build confidence and courage. Slowly but surely, I believe I will gain momentum. It’s the first few days that will be the hardest, but this is all temporary. My feelings are temporary.

I went to bed early, and woke up just now feeling ready to post the review of the day… lol Mind my marbles, apologize for my ramblings.

thank ye and onward

[Krista_Groskaufmane]

Good luck with your journey😊 it will be great to read how you’re doing every day.

[sallycat]

thank you

[sallycat]

Day 2: Friday 6/26 -> passed

I don’t want to use success, but yes I suppose it was successful. I’m sure I’m not the only one where the first three days are the hardest!

I’m tired, I’m emotional…I’m bit down but I am also taking courage that I’m doing it. I’m just trying to be present and stop worrying about the past or fearing what’s to come.

Yesterday I had work, and I was definitely up to my usual hyper productive self. I was out of it, for sure.

Today, I feel alone. I’ve painted and read and watched some comfort tv but thoughts are coming up that I am wasting my life “planning” …and what’s the point if nothing ever happens. See, takes me right out of it!

I didn’t even want to check in on here bc I was having self sabotaging thoughts and thoughts what the point if I’m going to screw up today anyway. But it’s day three. It’s tough. If it wasn’t tough, then it would be work. And this is part of me working on myself…
Yeah, that helps.

Excuse my rambles.

[sallycat]

I fell off the meditation pillow (read: fasting wagon) so I am going to post again when I am back up to date.

Currently just under 43 hours in, and first goal is 72 hours. That will bring me back to where I was!

[sallycat]

69 hours in

I’ve been very tired today. Fairly emo. That’s all there is to report for now!

[sallycat]

I set my first goal as 72 hours and am now at 93 hours and 45 minutes.

I feel like hell tired, weak, lightheaded… quite raw again

But I’ve always wanted to make it to 100 hours, and then review if I want to do 5 day or go for 10. I am not sure if it is safe for me to do 22… ugh I sound weak

[Overcomer]

Well done @sallycat, take some electrolytes to make it a bit bearable. All the best