I’ve ended up doing OMAD for 2 days, light meal each evening
Feeling much more confident and relaxed with the fasting side
I will not be eating anything today, then keep stretching it out.
Lots of water/flavoured water
I have been drinking tea and coffee with a splash of milk at work, because I can’t stand the taste otherwise, but that’s kept to a minimum anyway because too much caffeine triggers my migraines
I mentally feel in a good place today
The weekend wasn’t great, and sunday night, when I put my 1st post up in this journal, I was in a low mood and very pessimistic and struggling overall
It doesn’t help that the “encouragement” to diet from my parents - when i take a step back and really look at the actual language and words they use - is in fact abusive, and I would usually tell others to stand up for themselves, speak up, not let anyone talk to them in that way… but when it’s directed at me… all my advice flies out the window. I guess I’ve built up a tolerance to it, or now see it as the norm…
I don’t know if it’s a part of how I was raised, to not speak back to parents (and I used to be punished as a child/teen when I did, and even now as a 28 year old, I can get shouted down if I open my mouth to counteract what’s being said to me), but it’s just something I now do naturally, just shut up and listen and wait for it to pass.
The days I do OMAD, and more so on fasting days, I get very reflective and look back on my life a lot. I see the positives and really appreciate them, my hard work, my academic and work success, my maturity, etc. But I also focus and pick at the negatives a lot more, rather than brushing them away or burying them deep inside
I wonder if this will become more frequent the longer I fast 