Hello everyone
I started my fast last night and now I am 17 hrs into my fast. In the last few days, I have had trouble with headaches due to some tension in my muscles in my neck and shoulder area. I also have a headache today, but I know that it is not because of the fast, but because of the muscle tension.
I wanted to start here on the first day by writing the reasons why I want to fast and the biggest reason is Ramadan, but the others are more personal.
I want to fast so I can gain confidence and so I do not feel uncomfortable when I leave my house. Furthermore, I want to be the happiest and healthiest version of myself. I feel like this is a great opportunity to reset my food addiction and eating habits. I am also looking forward to gaining mental clarity and enjoying all the other benefits.
I really want to succeed this time because I am tired of being stuck like this and I need some change in my life. This year I was depressed and now when I am self-isolated it has made matters worse because I cannot be with my friends who give me energy and happiness. Therefore I also feel like this challenge will help with my mood and my general view on life.
A big role in my depression has been my reflection in the mirror. I have gained a lot of weight in the last couple of years after my father passed away. The weight gain resulted in me not going out as much and usually, I am very social, so I was going down a downward spiral.
But now I am ready to change it. I need to change it. I am not living my life the way I want to and one of my greatest fears is to die without having lived.
So yeah, that was a little history of why I am doing this and I will post an update every day.
Update 5 hours later: Feeling better with the headache, so that is nice. But I always feel kind of empty inside while fasting - maybe because I am empty inside? Well 22 hrs in and going strong.