Here we go! No more day ones!
My Daily Journal... Because it's time!
Day 0
Last meal will be at 10pm! It just feels safe. I feel like I will be ready to let go of food if I can eat until 10pm… Or, maybe before midnight…
Day 0
Feeling like I can do this but I keep giving in to food. I don’t think I’m addicted to food, but I think something is not right with what I’m starting to see. Sugar and carbs seem to control me when my emotions are and stress is high. I am also starting to notice that I talk myself out of fasting and staying strong… Then I’m disappointed that I stopped to eat. Tired of being overweight. Tired of being depressed. Tired of hiding behind clothes. Tired of being embarrassed. Tired of not being able to freely shop and find clothes. Tired of living in leggings. Tired of caving to Carbs, Sugar, happy eating… Lonely eating. No money eating. Too many bills eating.
When I started my own program back on August 9th I knew my sugar/carb addiction could sabotage me because since I was a kid with two working parents I grew up on a SAD (Standard American Diet).
What I did to break my addiction was to do a 14-day potato diet. Only boiled potatoes and water. Besides breaking the addiction it was also to change my taste palate (I hated the taste of most vegetables).
It made it easier for me to transition to Intermittent Fasting and a “No Refined Carbs” diet. Then I went to OMAD and from there into prolonged water fasts.
Ok, I have 1 hour and 15 minutes before I start my fast. I’m starting to fear that I’m not going to make it past 12-14 hours. Ive been caving after 14 hours and I’m just tired of it. I need to make it to the 48th hour…
Day 0
Why am I doing this?
I need healing spiritually!
God is trying to tell me something and I need to hear from Him and seek guidance.
I need strongholds broken!
I am not healthy
80 pounds overweight
My little girl deserves a more healthy and present mommy not always tired.
I’m tired of thinking about the need to be healthy everyday
Tired of always needing to lose weight
Tired of feeling and looking “old” when I’m only 38.
My goal os to go as long as I can. My mini goal is to make it to 3 days… Then should be able to move on from there… I hope.
Day 1
I’m already starting to doubt if I can do this. Sundays for me is usually Sunday breakfast of some sort with my little girl and church. After church it’s lunch and treats. Then its Sunday dinner a little later. I’m starting to feel hungry and feel like I need to just eat and try to start tomorrow… I dont want this to remain the pattern. I know I need help but how can I get past this first day?
Hang in ther
Remember no more day one… count 1 -100 backwards whenever want to eat
Completed Day 6 for me. One of the people at my church decided to test me by dumping a bunch of Halloween candy in front of me at the potluck lunch after service. I just grinned, laughed and gave it to someone sitting next to me.
Day 1… Caved
Ugh, crashed after 18 hours. I honestly could have been stronger but felt myself saying I didnt want to be stronger. I know I need to stop letting food be the center, but it seems hard with kids. I feel like of I was single no kids this could be easier… I’m used to eating what my 5 year old doesn’t finish and eating all of the same foods mostly. I need to change and be ok with it. I’m tired of lookimg back at my notes or attempted journals just to see how I kept caving and starting over. I just want to finally be able to say I made it over the hump…
Started again at 10pm!
Day 1 again…
My emotions and stress get me into food trouble. I eat if I’m broke, I eat if I have a little extra money, I eat if I’m overwhelmed, I eat if the sun is out and shining bright! It always has to be a " oh the suns out, I feel like starbucks and 2 of their butter crescents with a Venti something… And lately twice a day!! I’m just over it… This needs to stop. I’m in pain. I’m embarrassed, I’m shameful, I feel like my husband will never come back if he sees me the way I am now… I’m an overweight depressed mess!
You got this! Take it step by step from a positive place Rise up, and do this for you! I’m so proud of you for getting back on the horse! Remember FOOD WILL ALWAYS BE THERE!!!
From doing research a lot of our eating is purely habit. The key is reprogramming over the old conditioning. Maybe the next time an old habit pops up you can replace it with a new habit. Just a suggestion.
Day 1 complete!! 24 hours done!
Heading into day 2!!
I am all over the place… Battling with the thoughts to eat or not to eat… I realize that I have allowed food, my body and emotions control me. So, I’m dealing with not letting my emotions control when I eat or what I eat… I’m in battle right now.
Super motivate. Today is my day 1
Day 2:
So… I’m feeling really mad that I still have so much fat and unwanted weight. I’m starting to feel like this fasting is not working fast enough!! I think its just my moods and hormones going through detox, but this is how I feel right now… This is not moving fast enough. I’m just saying.
Just take it day by day. I started my program back in August 9th. I’ve lost 49lbs so far. The key is sticking with it.