Day 8 of my third, consecutive 21 day fast:
I am experiencing total bliss again, like in waves of ever, increasing feelings of gratitude. I think it is because the headache has released me from it’s grasp. I feel free. The headache is GONE. I literally slept almost 12 hours, last night and did not wake up once. I woke up with a “Yippy-Yay!”, and that means my body was able to have multiple cycles of deep sleep.
You HAVE to know, I had been suffering, and I do mean suffering from insomnia, big time, for years. The only way I could sort of “sleep”,(it felt more like hovering), was by listening to an audible book, that was a tad boring, or with a lot of description, like the great book by David McCullough, called , 1776. Or his book called, JOHN ADAMS. All his books are well-researched and so interesting…But, he does more describing than conversations and his books, in the past, have lulled me into the hover state of sleeping and I would often wake up many times. No wonder my 60+years show up in the deep circles under my eyes, and the crease between my eyebrows. From the research done of autophagy, I know that extended fasts reverse the aging process. And I am soooo grateful for the deep sleep I am now receiving. I used to believe that fasting CAUSED insomnia. That, I can testify, is NOT true…at least for me. Yeah, the first few days of a fast, before ketosis magic happens, the stomach can keep us awake. After ketosis, (which happened on the fourth day, this time, for me), the hunger just goes away, and stomach growling, too. Buh-Bye big belly!
Shh, don’t tell anyone, but I am contemplating doing this fast for either 28 or 30 days…AND I reached the decision that afterwards, for the month of September, I WILL, indeed, do the 5:2 protocol, which consists of fasting Sunday evening until Friday evening. And I will eat Friday evening for one hour, Saturday for 8 hours, and on Sunday 4 hours. I believe it could be possible then to reach my goal, of having dropped, released and freed myself from the extra 60 lbs. I had been carrying around (I do not really like to say, “lose weight”, because psychologically, none of us like to “lose” anything, and will try to find whatever was lost. I am not effing around with my unconscious mind!) So, understand when I say, “release” I mean saying “buh-bye” to the extra padding, that I was covering myself with. I know that I decided a loooong time ago, when my husband died (2010), that I was really done with relationships. At my age, I would only end up with physically wrecked men, who still have a “mommy” complex, and want either a cook, housekeeper or nurse. No thank you. I have been there, and done that. I have 3 (!!!) marriages behind me, and I really feel done. Yet, I am opening myself to fun. I am choosing now to open myself to a possible relationship, where I have fun, do not have any obligations and am free. Whoever it is, must be financially abundant, (he can hire a cook, housekeeper, gardener, and nurse) and I am a fun addition. Whoever it is, MUST love to laugh, like adventures, love to travel, and enjoy life. And yet be a deep thinker, and is able to hold his own, psychologically, in all conversations. I need to respect a man’s mind. I do not enjoy couch pototos, who watch the TELL-a-VISION. I do not enjoy watching any sport, even the corrupt Olympics, on the boob-tube. He should like to do sports but not be obscessed with his looks. And he has to be an ethical person, who does NOT turn a blind eye on corrupt gov’t policy. He has to be NOT a religious, dogmatic person, yet spiritual practices are attractive to me.
And… I really don’t need a relationship…I have had GREAT relationships, and have gone whereever my desires needed to go, I am sated. So, I do not need a relationship. I will be my own best friend. And yet I know, that extra padding insulates us from opening up to others, and what do we do, if we feel “fat”? We isolate ourselves, right? I will do this NO MORE! And I am happy. I really am. Fasting has truly saved me from self-destruction. And with that I am off to walk my beloved puppies, who are actually elderly dogs. They are my dear, dear friends.
Happy Fasting, and bye for now.
Pretty confident the pain in my head was as serious as a migraine.
