Day 2 - 5/18
I have done many 40-48 hours fasts, quite a few 60-72 hour fasts, and tried a 5-day fast, where I ended up having a small meal in the middle of it, but I’ve been afraid to go beyond the 72 hours, even though I’ve been inspired by the idea for a long time.
So, my intention for this is to go as long as I feel to go (essentially until I feel it’s clear to stop), while also paying attention to my thoughts and feeling the feelings that come up, while also NOT judging them or myself in the process.
I started yesterday, and I can feel the wanting to eat for many reasons:
Hunger, boredom, happiness, excitement, monotony, because I decided not to eat, etc.
It’s like I don’t have anything better to do, might as well eat!
There’s such as resistance to just staying with the feelings and wanting to eat (or anything else) to distract myself from them.
Plus, with the shorter fasts, I’ve always had the thought: “This isn’t so bad. I can eat tomorrow.” But with this open-ended fast, I can’t rely on this thought, which is uncomfortable. It’s kinda like the whole lock-down thing and waiting for things to get back to “normal,” as if I can’t be happy or at peace until that time.
Thank you for presenting this opportunity! 
