Jen's Journal

[Bodybyme]

• Define your “WHY” - Why are you doing this?

I want to feel comfortable in my own body. I want to feel light and be painless.
I want to be on a normal and healthy weight. I want to weight 140 lbs
To be more active and social. I want to not be a food addict.
I want to eat to live not live to eat!

• What are your long term and short term goals?

short term: I want to lose 50 lbs… by 2020! ( can I do that with fasting)
Most importantly I want my binging to ge under control.
Long term: Have a healthy lifestyle without food being the center of my life.

*** What are some struggles you face or you have faced in the past**

My biggest struggle is my binge eating and my lack of self-control, but I know for experience that if I stick with something more than 3 days I usually learn self controlis just getting started that is hard for me

• What is your game plan? (/.e. OMAD intermittent Fasting + Keto + Water Fasting

My plan is to the long fast with everybody but I’m starting today. I’ll weight, measure and take photos as soon as I’m done posting this… might even post them here for accountability.
My plan for the next 21 days:
My first goal is 3 days when I reach 3 days if I want to keep going I’ll aim for 6, but if I feel like eating I’ll have something light and keto and then start another 3 days until I do 21 days.
I’m going to be drinking water with salt, apple cider vinegar, and tea.
My meal are purposely going to be very boring to trigger craving; a green salad and pickles.

• How do you feel right now? (Happy, Sad, Anxious, etc.) and why?

I’m scared and Anxious but also hopeful to get out of this binging circle that I’ve been in for a few years already.

• How will you feel once you achieve your goal? (Visualization)

I’ll feel like a weight has been lifted off of my soul (and literally of my body), I’ll feel in control of my life again.

• Write down your daily positive affirmation: “I am…”
  I am beautiful
  I am strong
  I am in control
  I am talented
  I am capable
  I will achive my dream body once and for all!

• Write anything else you want to write, let this flow freely since it’s your journal for yourself!

I’ll add my weight and mesurements later

[Yasemin]

This is such a powerful post Jen, I can feel your determination through the screen, and we got this! Just keep posting every day! Especially if you have rough days, it will help re-focus your mind and get back on track <3!!! Let’s go!

[Bodybyme]

Thanks! I definitely will!

[Bodybyme]

my starting weight was 228
on morning of day 1 (sunday): 226.4
morning of day 2: 223.4

I hate to admit but i failed today after almost 49 hours. I sad that now I’m not with the group but like Yasemin says I’ll fail forward. and restart the fast right away.
My biggest challenge was being outside around food, I was weak but I’m going to learn from this and do better.

I haven’t taken my pictures or measurements I need to do better. I’ll do those when I get home tomorrow today I’m exhausted.

I need to do more journaling and affirmations. Another issue is I wasn’t drinking enough water.

Tomorrow is day one again. I hate it and but I’m happy to do it again.

I’m researching if i can han psyllium husk during a fast supposedly I might because it doesn’t take you out of autophagy but that’d mean is not a just water fast… but if it means i’ll stick with it im in. but don’t know yet if i will use it. any tip?

[Bodybyme]

if anybody strict is looking for a fasting partner to keep track with let me know! I’d love to have somebody to talk when i need one. maybe do a discord group chat

[Kattystrong]

Bodybyme, I know exactly how you feel. You dont know the number of atempts I have made. And everytime I tell myself, "Ill begin again tomorrow and tomorrow comes and I give in again. Today I almost failed, but the kids fastfood and it smelled soo tempting, but I kept strong because I am tired of telling myself all the time that tomorrow I will start again. Keep strong, dont give in.

[Bodybyme]

Thanks for those great words! I know what you mean I usually do that saying “i’ll do it tomorrow, I’ll do great tomorrow” but I’m tired of starting over and leaving it for later. I’m going to do my best now and just get up even if i fail I’ll just continue.

[Bodybyme]

It’s morning of day 1. I’ve been fasting since around 7 pm last night. Almost 15 hours in
I didn’t gain any weight, but I didn’t lose either so is ok. Today I’ll be drinking lots of water with minerals

Weight: 223.4
BMI: 31.6
Height: 5’10.5”

I got this!