Day one.
Goals for this fast
•Weightloss
•Extreme detox
•Menstrual restoration
•30 days at least but leaning towards a total of 37 with a small break after day 6
Feelings today
• hunger
• irritation
• flu like symptoms (had before, hoping to heal)
Day 5.
Had a check up today flu like symptoms have reduced to a cold. My Dr didn’t say anything negative about my alternate day fasting, but I didn’t mention the extended fast. She won’t agree with that healthy or not. However this is my opinion, I don’t exactly recommend doing the same.
Feelings today
• sick still
• apparently dehydrated
• tired
Day 6.
I’m burnt out. I’m so so tired of worrying about my weight. For the past two years it seems to have become my way of life and I’m honestly tired of it. I want to be able to eat a piece of cake without gaining 5 pounds overnight. Why was I cursed to be fat? Everyone around me gets to eat how and what they want. Me? I go 30 days without food to gain 19 pounds back in 6 days while not even fully enjoying being off a diet. I’m so tired of caring about the stupid scale. It’s not fair. I know people who can eat whatever whenever as much as they want and still lose weight. I try not to hate these people but honestly I struggle. I envy them and what they can do because my body has never allowed that.
So day six will be a bed rest water only day because my emotions are killing me and I will stuff them down with food if given the chance, which is bad for me, because I’ll gain at least 5 pounds for even smelling a cookie.
I can relate. I’m at the point of my evolution I’m working hard at re-setting my body’s weight set point. It’s not easy. I drove my weight down by 81lbs from 278lbs to 197lbs from Aug 9th to Nov 30th. On the ReFeed and 30-day workout I went back up to 216lbs. I know some of it was the increased LBM but still.
On the recently completed 21-day I drove it down to 184lbs. On the ReFeed and current workout phase I’m at 203lbs. I know I’m going to have several rounds of burning the fat off and the body wanted to go back to its previous set point. But, I keep hope because the most important fact is clearing my body of the decades-old fat and accumulated toxins.
Just have to trust the process and keep working… the alternative is just too depressing to contemplate.