Jaimee's Journey

[this_is_jme]

Intro
Hi everyone, I’m Jaimee.
Ive gotten myself to a weight that makes everyday hard and uncomfortable. I haven’t had a problem with my weight before, but, in the last year, life has thrown me some curveballs & i have been overeating.

Why
I am doing this because I feel terrible 24/7. I have rheumatoid arthritis (RA) and being fat makes my symptoms much, much worse. I find it hard to sit down, hard to get up and sometimes just walking short distances is very painful. When i am a normal weight my RA is manageable and i am able to live a normal life. Its summer where i live and i am sweating constantly which is gross and unpleasant. I also only have 2 pairs of pants that fit, and its embarrassing wearing the same clothes all the time. Because of my weight i have been isolating myself from friends and family, but also my RA symptoms hold me back as I’ve been too sick to get out and do things. I want to be happy & healthy again.

Long Term and Short Term Goals:
Long term goa

1. Stop taking my RA medication
2. Get down to my normal weight of 60kgs

Short term goals

1. Be healthy and fit enough to go away on a girls trip in May 2020
2. Be skinny enough that i feel comfortable and not self-conscious for the trip in May 2020.
3. Get my eating under control so that during and after this trip, i stay on track but also can enjoy myself.
4. Look really gorgeous for a wedding in May 2020.

What are some struggles you face or you have faced in the past
I often “stress eat” or “boredom eat”. Once i eat something like chocolate or cake, i then go into a full binge! Also, i am addicted to sugar, especially chocolate.

** What is your game plan?**

1. OMAD Keto until March 1st
2. 2 x 20-40 minute walks with the dog each day
3. Ive joined an water aerobics class especially for arthritis suffers at the local pool. This runs for 10 weeks, and aims to get you into more serious forms of exercise once the course is finished.
4. Join the group fast in March. My goal is to complete a 14 day fast and come off it with keto.
5. Take progress pics every week, with measurements and weight.
6. Be proactive and open with my awesome coach, Yasemin <3

How do I feel right now?
I am sore, tired and hungry BUT I’m happy I’m doing this.

How will I feel once I achieve my goal?
Thrilled, ecstatic & sexy

Daily Affirmation
I am confident in a bright & happy future.
I am excited about what the future holds.
I am safe, secure and living the life of my dreams.

[Yasemin]

I love this so much!!!

Great job with your first journal entry and your homework! I’m going to add some of these pictures here as well so we can have them here for motivation every time you open your journal!

Loving your positive affirmations as well, so proud of you let’s get this done!!!

[Freedumb]

Welcome to the forum.

[this_is_jme]

Thanks for the welcome everyone! There are some incredible weight loss stories on this forum, so inspiring

[this_is_jme]

Day 2.

I had a very quiet day getting ready for the week ahead, and catching up on my rest.

Managed to stick to OMAD, despite feeling really hungry all afternoon. I felt like something cooked rather than a salad, which meant I had to pop up to the supermarket. As i was putting some vegetables in my reusable supermarket bag, i realised that i hadn’t emptied it properly from a previous supermarket shop. To my horror, i discovered THREE chocolate bars in my bag! Once i had gotten everything i needed, i had to sheepishly explain to the girl working the check-out that i had brought 3 chocolate bars with me into the supermarket, just so i didn’t have to pay for them again!
I didnt want them in my house, so when i got home, i gave them to my next-door neighbour. Im sure she was pleased but probably thought i was a bit odd lol.
Anyway, in response to the hunger, i have upped my portion sizes to make sure i am eating enough. I was so full of rubbish when i started doing OMAD that i was probably eating too little.
No sugar cravings, or any cravings really. Bonus!
Completed my walks and, true to form, was really sweaty and gross!

Onward to a new week, i have all my OMAD food sorted at home, so won’t feel overwhelmed or stressed.

Daily Affirmation
I am confident in a bright & happy future.
I am excited about what the future holds.
I am safe, secure and living the life of my dreams.

[Yasemin]

Uhhh that must have been such a pain to explain the annoying chocolate bars

Glad you gave them to your neighbour, random act of kindness You’re having a great day so far!!!

[this_is_jme]

Hi Fast Forward Family

Im nearly finished my week on keto OMAD, and i have to say, it has been better than i expected. I was dreading hardcore sugar cravings, and today was probably the hardest as i was dreaming of a chocolate milkshake all day. Thanks to a well timed text from Yasemin, i didn’t come up with any excuses to have one #mindtricks
In other news, starting my journey towards better health couldn’t have come sooner, as i am now down to one pair of pants that fit, instead of two : /

I went and saw my doctor this morning, and it was quite a long appointment because of how bad my RA is at the moment. I was sat in a chair facing him for about 30 minutes and the whole time, he has a very odd look on his face, not really at me directly. When we had finished i get up and leave, but his nurse calls me back.
In the room with the nurse alone, she asks me if i realise that i have TWO HOLES on the front of my pants. As i look down, horrified, i realise that my thighs are so fat they have been rubbing together furiously as i walk, meaning that i have worn out two holes on each inner leg that stretch up and around to my…um… private parts!!
It looked so bad, and so nude - all of my fat was poking out the holes too! OMG i nearly died. I had been to lots of places before this appointment too… The nurse was really kind and lent me her cardigan to tie around my waist.

I was a bit upset about it, but i remembered that Yasemin had said to me once not to worry about my weight now, as I’ll never be this weight again anyway. I really like that and got over it pretty quickly. Im looking forward to the time very soon when i am too small to fit any of my clothes!

I also made my first keto dessert. It was ok, not a milkshake. However, i am really, really full so thats positive.

My positive thoughts for today was;
I am grateful to my body for all the good health i have had in the past.
I accept good health and healing now and for my future.

[Yasemin]

@this_is_jme Uhhhhh I can understand how embarrassing that must have been for you but here are the plus sides.

• You’re not dating the clinic staff or the doctor and they poke around and bend people in all sorts of weird unflattering positions when they are testing people so don’t worry about it at all, they won’t even remember

• Most places you went before the doctors office are full of people you don’t even know so who cares !!!

I did a microdermabrasion in the summer before my FIRST week of frosh when I was back in university. I didn’t wear sunscreen so my skin melted off 3 parts of my face and I have a HUGE red hole and bloody scab on my chin as big as my thumb nail and two smaller ones on my cheek and so was so bad that it was less embarrassing to wear a bandaid on my face. Imagine how mortified I was. This is an insecure 19 year old during frosh week, who knows NOBODY who needs to make friends and had a HUGE bloody scab on my face uhhhhhhh but look you won’t even remember this a week or two from now so don’t worry!!! Embarrassing stuff happens to everyone and everyone is so busy caring about their OWN embarrassing stories and insecurities that they don’t have time to look at yours!!!

As I said! This is the beginning of a great moment and you will fit in all your pants soon!!!

[this_is_jme]

Hi Fast Forward Family,

Great news with my weigh in this morning. My 7 day result was a loss of 4.9kgs - huge! Im ecstatic with that number. Looks like i was holding a lot of water, so I’m happy to be rid of that. With only a few days left until the group fast starts, i wanted to update my game plan.

Game Plan - March 2020

GOAL - Water fast for 14 days & get into the 70kg weight range.
Join the group fast in March. Start with small goals 3 days, 5 days, 7 etc.

How am i going to do this?

Ive booked annual leave from the 2nd of March until the 30th of March. I want to give myself time to rest and heal. Also, this time off means there is no pressure should i need to extend the fast, or stop/restart. It also means there is no pressure or stress around re-feeding properly.

The longest i have fasted is 5 days, and i did this about 3 times. Each time got up and went to work each day, and had no clue of what was doing. When i broke the fast it was always during the day at work, so was food that wasn’t planned - not junk food, like Mcdonald’s or anything but i didn’t do myself any favours! One fast i broke with raw dates that i found from the deli store around the corner from work - they were so sweet and chewy and gross - not to mention the intense sugar cravings afterwards.

• This time i will stop my fast in a controlled way, with a Keto refeed.

In order to stop “boredom eating” or fixating on food, I’ve booked in treatments over the time off - acupressure, cranial-sacral massage, lymphatic drainage, acupuncture & physiotherapy. Luckily, all of my RA treatments are covered under my health insurance, so its free - even better! The treatment place i go to is on the same street that I live on, so it gets me out of the house but won’t be too taxing should i not feel energetic.
I have 3 books ready to read, and a list of Netflix shows to binge watch.

Otherwise, everything else stays the same.

1. OMAD Keto until March 1st
2. 2 x 20-40 minute walks with the dog each day
3. Ive joined an water aerobics class especially for arthritis suffers at the local pool - this doesn’t start until 18th March.
4. Take progress pics every week, with measurements and weight.
5. Be proactive and open with my awesome coach, Yasemin <3

Affirmation
I am confident in a bright & happy future.
I am excited about what the future holds.
I am safe, secure and living the life of my dreams.

[Yasemin]

I love this!!! Nice big recap of everything we just discussed! Great plan for success and WOW 4.9kgs this week is HUGE!!!

Send me that Saturday menu later so we can take a look!

Happy OMAD this evening!!!

[Yasemin]

I want to see some updates and journalling on here

[this_is_jme]

Fast start weight: 87.8kgs
Bust: 47 inches (WTF)
Waist: 41.5
Hips: 46 inches

Well, here i am at hour 42. I was initially nervous that i wouldn’t make it easy hour 2 - so getting this far strengthens my resolve.
I got a bit… maybe hungry at my normal dinner time yesterday - maybe more expectant than hungry. Instead of eating, i have a whole list of things to do to take my mind off fasting, so ended up following a makeup tutorial on youtube that took about 90 minutes. I must say i looked very glamorous walking the dog later on hahaha. Anyway, it did the trick and pretty soon it was time to watch the NZ Bachelorette, which was another 90 minutes of distraction and then time for bed.
Phew!

Write down 1 positive affirmation today
I am grateful to my body for all the good health i have had in the past & i trust my body to heal itself during this fast.

Write down 1 goal you would like to accomplish today
DONT EAT DONT EAT DONT EAT!!!

Write down 3 things you are grateful for today
I am grateful to Yasemin for starting this group and for agreeing to help me. I am grateful to my dog for dragging me out for neighbourhood walks, and for walking slowly when I’m sore. Im grateful that i have time to fast and look after myself.

• Write down your “WHY”. WHY is this journey important to you?*
  I want to feel healthy and young again, and i want to look healthy and young again. I hate feeling like a sick, old lady who can’t get out of chairs or climb stairs. I hate that i have put on so much weight and that this makes me feel physically worse. I also want to be able to fit my clothes, and not bulge out of things.

Write down 5 reasons why you want to break your fast.
I am not going to break my fast because i will meet my weight loss goal.
I will not break my fast because i am going to be healthy again.
I will not break my fast because i am going away with my friends in May and i cannot cancel on them again!
I will not break my fast because i want to move forward in my life and have the future i deserve.

Heres a pic of the NZ Bach, because she is inspiring every night!

https://i.dailymail.co.uk/1s/2020/01/05/23/23027816-7854577-image-m-22_1578268795252.jpg

[Yasemin]

I love this and I bet you felt glamorous walking the dog! Sounds like a solid day 2!!! Almost on to day 3

Day 3 will suck, but I promise you once you’re over the hump, it gets MUCH easier! It’s not linear!!!

[this_is_jme]

Day 3 - 66 hours!

I felt a bit rough this morning, so i had some salt/low salt and apple cider vinegar with some really cold water. I also had a black coffee, and immediately realised that was a big mistake. It was so strong and so bitter tasting, i think i might swap to tea from now on and failing that, plain hot water.
After that i went to bed and felt a bit sorry for myself… but after a few messages with Yasemin i decided to rally. I was really inspired thinking about how many people are fasting, and how there might be people that are looking after kids/family + working whilst fasting.That got me up, in the shower and out the door for a dog walk! Wooohoooo!

Affirmation
I am in the process of positive change.
I can change my life for the better.

[Yasemin]

You’re SO close to getting over the hump!!! Keep going you gorgeous superstar!!!

Remember your why!!!

[Yasemin]

Nice walk on the beach today!!! Enjoy your movie!!

[this_is_jme]

Hi fasting family,

I hope everyone is going well & as we count down the days, that people are feeling better & better.
I had to stop my fast at the start of day 5 because of the worst indigestion, heartburn & acid reflux.
I had some bone broth & two boiled eggs because i couldn’t fix my symptoms with apple cider vinegar or baking soda.
Ive reset my timer (i didn’t realise that as the “crutch” was under 500, i could just keep going) and i have a soft target of Saturday night with a hard target of Thursday.

Funnily, i feel even more determined to keep going this time. I now realise i was a bit fearful of fasting during the last one, not anymore!

Todays affirmation;
Dont eat! Lets get this done!!

[Yasemin]

Nice Jaimee, just saw this!

[Yasemin]

New Year - New Jaimee