I'll just take a seat here for a while

Miramar · May 7, 2021, 9:15pm

You just made my day

Yes, I hope everyone pops in and maybe they all made it to maintenance?

I got side tracked with an outside project today. It was just too beautiful out to be in my apartment toiling away.

Making a custom dolly to go under a grow box so it can get wheeled around.

Going to plant some birdhouse gourds and morning glories.

Did you know there’s a substance similar to LSD in morning glory seeds? I didn’t think so. Lol. I only found out as I was looking to see if the flowers were edible for my hermit crabs.

I took a pregnant sympathy pause with yasmin. I figure by the time she has the baby and gets her breast feeding out maybe we will both have the same amount of weight left to lose (that’s my story and I’m sticking to it).

Ok, back to checking my spray paint.

Yasemin · May 8, 2021, 3:15am

@JennaL @Miramar Quick side note, someone accidentally flagged all of our posts I believe… so I just brought them all back - maybe the person was trying to bookmark? My own post got flagged too LOL

Thank you for being my eyes when I can’t see everything - especially these days I’m a little preoccupied

[EDIT] User may have been a troll or something so I removed them from the forum I have no patience lately, and they were just flagging everything for no reason - after seeing a bunch of flagged posts including my own posts pop up “under review” I don’t think it was an “accident” after all LOL - problem maker was booted = problem solved

Yasemin · May 8, 2021, 3:23am

Lmao at the sympathy lbs

I’m excited to fast again by 2022

Fun to say baby girl is coming next month!!! WOW! Not too much longer!!

Also I’m reading through your lovely posts @Miramar and @JennaL and I’m annoyed at the flagged thing too - we never really had any issues with random people flagging posts since I built this forum a few years ago I didn’t know it temporarily “deactivated” the post, but I saw that they were “sent to me” for review and I just didn’t see Should be restored now, I think I have a short temper with silliness like the unnecessary flagging of posts will go take a nap!

Happy Mother’s Day weekend ladies

Yasemin · May 8, 2021, 4:24pm

This is HUGE progress Stacia!!! Honestly it’s the little changes that make a huge difference - give yourself some huge credit for being consistent with these lifestyle changes especially with the amount and stress and negativity in the air lately You are amazing!!!

Journey is the fun part - so enjoy it nice , slowly and steadily!

I’m excited to get back at the weight loss side of things, felt funny this year to see the scale intentionally going the wrong way

Will have my work cut out for me again soon the best we can do is manage our stress, stay positive and make good decisions so we feel happier and take care of our mental health! Sugar is always directly correlated with ruining my self-esteem and making me depressed, (almost immediate) it’s awful!!! But sometimes everyone slips, so noticing those patterns have been huge huge huge for me in stopping the type of binging I used to do many years ago!!

You all rock Love you all

Miramar · May 9, 2021, 1:42am

Saturday night.

A neighbor downstairs hosted a mothers day party for his daughters and some other people we know who are mothers. He made a huge meal and told me it was the wrong day for me to be fasting. lol. Keeping my eye on the prize.

Had a busy day. Went for the chiropractor for a little neck snap and to check the ankle I sprained a few weeks ago. Found an estate sale and spent a dollar. Worked more on my garden stuff. It was a beautiful day to be out and about. Oh! got some new spices to try and spent some time in two different asian markets.

Nothing else to report really. Just winding down the evening.

Stacia · May 9, 2021, 2:18am

Yasemin!! Thank you so much for your post … I always feel like the celebrity of the group replied to me!!! … it does mean a lot. I am super excited for your bundle of joy, honestly motherhood has been the hardest (the worrying!!) but by far the best part of my life and I am just super stoked for you!! I was 125 when I got pregnant and gained 50 pounds (with twins) but with all the running around I lost it all pretty quick … it was the divorce and love affair with pizza years later that did me in for weight gain!! I am convinced food is self medicating when stressed and sad, overwhelmed, etc. It’s no different than an alcoholic or drug addict to me. Alcoholic foods is what I call them. Sugar and wheat (with fat) are Satan himself. . Sugar makes me immediately isolate and can’t deal with life … it’s just so awful. I came to the conclusion that cheese and corn are my drugs too because they immediately relplaced sugar and wheat!!

It’s been working out to quit one at a time even though I’m sooooo impatient and want instant thinness and health. If I go back to eating sugar, glutten or cheese I feel like it might kill me! Omg, not kidding. Some people can have a snack or eat bad on the weekend and be fine … not me, I obsess and secret eat in the car in dark alleys . The weird part is I can take or leave alcohol … but I get high as a kite on evil Sugar … so weird. I havnt touched sugar in any form since October 19th! Woo hoo!!

My actually starting to make progress was due to your site here!! Thank you Yasemin !!!

Happy mother’s day and you are a godsend to many of us here . Thank you for the encouragement… I promised myself that Mother’s Day would be my day 1 with no more corn chips !! Can Someone please tell me I can do it?! This is the last binge food to go (unless something else creeps in which it could!!). I’m actually scared because I’ll have to deal with feelings and life … it’s so hard some days … love you guys !! Rooting for everyone !!

Miramar · May 10, 2021, 12:56am

Sunday night.

Was completely lazy today and watched movies all day. Still waiting for some rubber spray to cure, got some pickling stuff ready to do tomorrow. Have a meeting at noon. Need to be studying more meditation videos.

Tomorrow will be a productive day.

Miramar · May 10, 2021, 3:13pm

Good morning!

Finally finished my grow box this morning!

I made a custom dolly. Added a trellis. The frame my dad made. I’ve had it since my folks passed.

Bird house gourd - only one seed in the packet! And put some morning glories on the sides.

Will water it tonight.

Running out now for some baking soda and coffee.

And then into some canning and Pickering this afternoon.

Miramar · May 11, 2021, 11:00am

Good Morning! It’s a great day to be fasting!

Day 13 today. I feel like my head is on straight.

Belly pooch is a bit saggy this morning. Thinking I may need some support or a girdle to sweat it back in place for the thin belly.

It rained buckets last night. Mother nature watered my new seeds for me.

My fingers smell like garlic to day. I peeled a ton of garlic, got the honey in it, and it’s fermenting. Need to remember to burp it daily.

Today the kimchi is finally getting made! Dang, takes me forever to get things done - but been too much on the computer. And spent 6 hours hanging with the neighbor last night, but I was sitting and peeling garlic. The cloves got so tiny. It felt like it was taking forever.

Oh! I saw Dr. Strange. I really enjoyed it. Manifesting things I need quickly and astral travel right up my alley. I could use one of those capes.

Spoiler alert! My costume this year does not involve a cape - but now I’m thinking I might have to incorporate one anyway. I can do that.

Many dishes to do before so I can make room to make the kimchi.

Miramar · May 11, 2021, 12:00pm

181.5

Hadn’t posted a weight update as it hadn’t changed, so today was very nice to see!

Only 8 more days to go, and I want to see the 170’s.

My refeed plan will be heavily monitored this time! I’m thinking bone broth galore and hold back on the solids.

My one year fasting anniversary - 4 weeks from today - will happen while I’m in Cancun. I’d be elated to come back from that trip and still be in the 170s. Going to concentrate on 7lbs gone in the next 4 weeks. 175 will be delightful!

lizgistics · May 11, 2021, 8:18pm

you can do it! love cancun. love any beach actually. love eating. finally reading your stuff Ms. Jill. Did you know you are the most read on this forum minus Yas?

lizgistics · May 11, 2021, 8:21pm

yes - obsess and secret eat. same here.

good for you for leaving it alone since October 19. that’s amazing to me!

lizgistics · May 11, 2021, 8:23pm

you can do it!!! how are you doing on no corn chips? no judgment here if you are eating them in your car at night in the strange alley

I feel so naked when i have no anethesia AKA binge eating, alcohol in another life, marijuana in another recent life that i promise myself i’m never going back to

lizgistics · May 11, 2021, 8:26pm

i want to know how you started cutting out binge food? did you do it in stages? i’m terrified of doing it. but thinking it’s what i need to do in order to stop binging. i’m just so sick of it. is it in your journal? do i just need to read the whole thing? i’m so curious

Miramar · May 11, 2021, 8:49pm

About time you stopped by.

I’m on a quick break from all my food prep. Waiting for canning jars to cool and boiling up eggs to make beet pickled eggs. Trying to use up stuff in the fridge.

Finally getting around to the kimchi. Just letting the cabbage soak in salt water for another 2 hours. Got the paste made to mix in there and bam! I will have kimchi on my refeed and for the next 6 months.

Got some honey in jars ready. Making mead and some pear wine - small batches as there’s only 3 of us (me myself and I) and two of us don’t drink.

I like to hit the refeed and have yummy healthy things prepped.

Going to pickle the rest of the daikon radish too.

It’s supposed to get rainy here for the next 3 days so need to finish the cooking. Makes my apartment a bit too steamy with rain.

lizgistics · May 11, 2021, 8:54pm

wow the foods you talk about - me, myself and I have never heard of them!!!

interested in this whole canning thing. not sure i could get into it if i’m fasting though bc i don’t like being around food when i can’t eat it. although, fasting is when i am looking for more things to do that are enjoyable.

Miramar · May 11, 2021, 11:09pm

Stock in the freezer, trial of pickled ginger, beet and daikon pickles (waiting for the juice to cool down to pour over, and stuck a hot pepper in there) beet pickled eggs. Mead still waiting to cool a bit more before adding yeast.

Here’s the honey garlic ferment. The garlic chopped up and put on pork roast is incredible. The honey drizzled on pizza is divine. Have to burp it every day for about a month and then into the fridge.

Copy cat my favorite spice mix. I use it in soup, and make a dip out of it that is addictive on french fries .

I’ve been busy all day! And the pickled things will be just perfect as my fast ends.

Kimchi is in the wine cooler and done! Will probably leave that unplugged for the evening.

Stacia · May 12, 2021, 12:19am

Miramar! I promise I’ll start posting on my own journal tomorrow, I keep hijacking yours …

Liz!! Thank you for your “you can do it!!” This is how crazy I am … I woke up the next day and said to myself “well, no one said I could quit corn chips so I guess I can keep eating them today”… is that insanity?? I binged on them for a Straight hour (in my car hiding out as usual)… omg!! Thank you for the encouragement, honestly, I’m scared to death for some reason to quit as I think what will I do for a break? A re-set? Down time? Numb out time? Sugar and pizza are gone … I honestly have no idea how I’m going to get through the day without a fix (so insane to think my drug of choice is corn chips)… lol. When I was like 12 on I spent all my money on nacho cheese flavored Doritos and pop tarts … and once in awhile a can of pre made vanilla frosting which I’d sit on the elementary school stairs between home and the store and eat with my fingers … it’s amazing I wasn’t a huge kid, I think it’s because I played a ton of soccer but boy those days are behind me … I went from an attractive girl to a fatty by 40 (sorry it’s true)… I wish I could call myself beautiful no matter what size but ugh … weirdly I don’t see that in other wemon, just me. Grrr … trust me I try to stay positive… I will tell you this though, I’m super hopeful !! More than ever…gone is sugar (a freaking miracle), and all bread/wheat products and cheese!!

Now it’s corn chips !! Liz, you said I can do it and I can !! I know it !!! You are right!! We all can, it’s a mind set which I think I need to come up with a personal mantra that is powerful to me, but what? Do you guys have one that you like and works? I will start today after my last giant bag of chips and salsa… not kidding … I can do this right?!! Starting tonight on 5/11!! I’m rooting for you all too, please send me good vibes … this is a big one.

Miramar, keep posting too, you’ve been a huge inspiration to me since day 1, you’re ability to stick to your fasting schedule always had me in awe!

Stacia · May 12, 2021, 12:42am

Hi again Liz, no need to read my whole journal! Girl, I tried for soooooooo long to quit everything at once (I mean a million times) and thought after my 9 day water fast id be done with all my binge foods (sugar (cake, donuts, some certain cookies), chips, cheese and pizza). Funny cause French fries, chocolate, ice cream, candy and a few others I can take it or leave it… it’s just these specific combinations that turn me into a frenzy … sooo I was like what’s the worst one for me? Sugar … so I said I’ll have myself a little party (I got a giant butter cream vanilla sheet cake - you know the gritty frosting (so yummy - my favorite sugar thing - like your M&Ms ) … I mean I got a huge one… I sat in my couch and ate pretty much the whole thing… I wanted to puke honestly… I told myself that’s it for sugar BUT I can still have pizza and chips sooo guess what? I binged on that once a day - I’m no snacker - I have never ate one Lil handful of anything in my life … it’s ALL or nothing … I mean eat til I can’t breathe and be done for the day … then a month later I quit bread/wheat/glutten but still ate glutten free pizza … glutten free bread is nasty …but pizza the crust is crunchy so I can’t tell … then went the cheese (which meant no pizza)… and no nachos … but I still had chips and Salsa … which I have binged on pretty much once a day for the past few months … so now what?!! Deal with my life through prayer and journaling here !! Will update tomorrow on how I feel … never really been here before except for a week or two of managing “the quit everything at once”. Which was hell.

Liz, you can do this, look how awsome it is that you quit weed and all the fasting days you do !! That’s NOT easy and you should be sooo proud of yourself! That’s some serious strength and so pick the next thing, make a date, quit it and then just go about life til your ready to knock off something else. It’s not too hard as long as you have that one “go to” which is where I am … scary as sh*t to say bye but you said I can do it and I believe you !! You can too !! Let’s do this !!

Stacia · May 12, 2021, 12:49am

Miramar, I am beyond impressed. I have zero desire to ever be in the kitchen … nice job with all this creative, home cooking !! It’s amazing I dragged my ass in the kitchen every day to cook healthy for my boys growing up, it’s crazy the things you do for Love because if I had it my way I’d cement the kitchen shut and order pizza every night