I’m Eloise. 44 years old 160 cm height 70kg weight.
Today I’m finishing my 3rd day. I have accidentally into water fasting around 2 years ago and dieting started around 4 years ago. Ever since started dieting my weight gone worse and worse. Anything I had tried never lasted long and weight gone up very quickly and more. I have done juice fasting several times never always fall out of track day 13 to 15 and happy with juice fasting. I tried ketogenic diet, counting micros etc. But I simply couldn’t eat lots of protein. I got nutritionist last December and quit on her. This made me feel failure and lead to binge eating. As I said water fasting was a accident began with. The friend of mine recommend something to try what she recommended by her nutritionist. It was recommended as cleaning her gut. It was for 5 days program but I did it 8 and half day. My goal was 10 days. And then started to self sabotaging and looking for excuse to quit, that excuse was stress caused by my hubby. but I know it wasn’t true. Since then constant fasting and binge eating. Starting Is become everyday. I know I can do it but somehow keep failing and failing. Even I did 3 day hard dry fasting last august. Scales goes down and then up and up. I Realised that I become Binge eater and want to fix and got my goal weight.which is 56. Ultimate goal was 52kg. But I’m given up on that number.
I had watched tons of water fasting videos and did my researches and I know a lot about water fasting but somehow kept failing.
3 days ago, again search on YouTube water fasting inspiration and found Yasemin. I’m so glad that I found her and done fasting stickers on my fridge. I love the idea of her review here and there to see if want to continue. Looking at the colourful stickers breaking down days seems works for me. Today I finished my 3 days pink stickers. See how far I can go with this time. I’m optimistic this time. Even If I finish earlier then I’d like to, I shouldn’t be guilty for failure.because of break down days and review every time colour changes given myself permission to finish my fasting.
My self sabotaging is related my view of myself not worthy enough. Never good enough what ever I did well never satisfied myself. What ever I do I’ll always come close but never did. I have to work on this mentality. This is my biggest challenge. I always do well with anything hands on until I realised I’m doing well above anyone Then I’d stop myself. I don’t know why??? It seems I’m scared to be best or noticed Because I did well. Same time I’d like to be noticed. I’m scared if I did well then people overestimate my ability, which is not good enough.
Oh well, this is my first public posting about myself. Doesn’t seem like a make any sense. But I’m going to post it.
Eloise’s fasting journey
Day-4
Start day with dizzy head and very week body. Usually day 4 is easier before but today was hardest. I was claps down all around house. Everyway I go, just laying down, So I went to bed around 3pm and fall sleep woke up 4pm, felt little bit better,I was glad to see almost end of the day. Then I finished sewing 1 cushion cover. I started a fasting project 2 days ago to keep myself busy as Yasemin suggested. I could have finished today but couldn’t do it. I signed up face yoga yesterday, friend called me to ask to join and started today for 15 days. I’m glad started this as something to do everyday to keep my mind off for 1 hour. I hope tomorrow is feel better. I really liked the coloured stickers.
Now I’m going down to get my magnesium then go to bed, hopefully sleep soon as I had late afternoon nap.
Good night everyone. Love you all. You are amazing!!!
How long are you planning to Fast? Good job getting to day four. Thats a big accomplishment.
Kyle,
I’m not sure. But I’d like to go as long as can go 30 days. Usually I plan big and fail, I gone into binge eating as a punishment. But this time I’m open minded, Give myself permission to break fast whenever I can, I think this method trigger my scarcity of loosing my freedom. And I used the Yasimen’s colour stickers Method, that’s make it looks like a complishment every now and again to review if I wanted to continue more. So far I’m happy with this. When I had to put white board with 30 days it seems long to go. So I take it little at the time. I joined this months 7 days challenge 3 days before start. So when they finish I’ll be in my 10th day and next 4 days in another colour sticker. So on. So I’ll be keep going as long as I can. Don’t want to promise to myself this time.
Welcome and good job starting the journal!
“I’m not good enough or worthy” usually stems from bad programming. Someone somewhere at some point in your life gave you this impression or drilled it in. Figure out where that came from and that’s half the battle.
You are an incredible being in a body and capable of doing anything you set your mind to.
Losing weight is one way of peeling the layers off the onion. Once you get the bad programming under control the weight loss will become effortless. 
Welcome! I am new here, too. Your post made perfect sense. I have received so much support and help from the members here. And when I felt weak, or wanted to eat, I listened to one of Yasemin’s “rant” videos, and boom!, I was back in the groove. I drank water when the cravings came, and just did not listen to the inner voice that wanted me to eat. Fasting started a real and wonderful process in me, and I feel grateful. Be kind to yourself on your journey. And remember to set short and long-term goals. It really helps.
Thank you, Miramar.
Yes I tried to find out where that program come from even went to therapies. I didn’t really found out where is it come from. But at least I know it it is not from my mother. I blamed here since my teenager life and I’m grateful that she is not the source.
I decided to move on instead of dwelling back that wouldn’t change. Hopefully it is come clear one day. Important thing is who you are surrounded with now do our best to achieve what we can do.
Thank you for your support. It is wonderful to know that I’m not alone. Xxx
Hi Mia,
Thank you for your support.
I put 30 days post on my fridge and peel of 5th today. Felt good. I really see this accountability groups has an advantage.
I can do this, You can do this. Stick together for good.
I love you and You amazing. Xxx
Day-5.
Woke up with no headache or pounding heart or dizziness. Felt wonderful.
My day 2 of face yoga group was good distraction to begin with. Then I did my project little bit didn’t finished today again.My overlooking machine was played up, so I walked out. Good thing is I still have a project tomorrow.
So I’m happy.
I’m coming to my bed it before 9pm. But I’ll watch few more videos and read some posts. Tomorrow different colour posts and calculated If I finish 10 days Fasting then it will be Friday. I visited my friend to play date for my kids, she complemented that my belly looks smaller. And encourage me to do more. Feeling good today.
I’m wonderful and I can do this.
I love you all!!! You are all amazing incredible people. Xxx
Day-6.
I lost only 100gr since my last day. Quite disheartening. But I took measurement of my belly. See how it would like tomorrow. I decided to do dry fasting today for just 1 day. Now I’m zipping water. Have to remember this is not just a scale. I worn one of my tight dress couldn’t wear lately. At least I did worn it, bit of tummy stacking out. But told myself I couldn’t even slip in it before. Little steps at the time. I sleep lot since fasting. My hubby is very supportive and cook for the family. Which is really nice of him.
Look forward to my day 7. Good night everyone, you are all amazing. Xxx
Day-8
I ended my fasting at day 7.
I never felt this bad during the fasting. Usually when fasting pain will go away from day 4. My weight hardly gone down since day 4 and I feeling tired all the time. Therefore I stopped my fasting at day 7. After 6pm I break my fast with water with Just green powder and found sweet. When I read ingredients it contains stevia in it. I was furious. I took this powder with just so didn’t know it is sweet. After that another glass of water with wheatgrass powder. Then I kept drinking from bone broth I was making. I couldn’t stop myself keep topping up. Maybe because I was watching movie with my husband. The TV is my biggest trigger to binge eating and I try to avoid.
My conclusion from this fast:
-I was sleep well during the night. All my previous fast I couldn’t sleep either too hungry or full of energy. I took 1tsp Epsom salt(cooking and it is magnesium sulphate) i didn’t have the tablet one and already started my fasting. It is nice to have full sleep.
-I took apple cider vinegar shot and drink Himalayan salt water.
Something didn’t agree with me Because I was tired all the time and in the I started to feeling sick. At least I went to bed earlier then my husband.
Day-8
I woke up with no headache and full of energy. My weight was 70.1 kg when started, today was 67.7kg (i’am stick with this few months now really cross)
I did bit of exercise then had a breakfast live yogurt and chia seed and kefir in the jar I made day before and added 1 tsp unilin powder as well. Later I had 1 glass of water with wheatgrass powder. For lunch I had beef broth I made.
Evening I had kale, spinach and green bean boiled in bit of Beef broth and bit of sauerkraut.
I steamed rest of vegetables and put in the fridge. I made almond milk as well for tomorrow or later. I usually discard the s almond pulp from almond after made milk but today I coincidentally watched one of this life hack video making almond milk in blender and coffee maker to separate them. I thought wow that is easy don’t have to clean juicer. When I push down the coffee plunger It didn’t move so I pressed soo hard almond milk spilt all over me. So much of Clewer life hack?! Stick to my slow juicer next time. But I did learn how to use almond pulp. Make a biscuit out of it. In fact it is out of oven now,
I hope I’m doing well with my refeeding. Never had a successful refeed before. Today my attempt was not eating after 12pm for OMAD. But didn’t happen. I did ate dinner rather large. I’ll still use colour sticker as my guide determined to shed this weight! I’ll give in Keto.
Now I’m bit worried to slip off the track again. Tomorrow is another day to adjust my eating. My order for permeated food and Kombucha tea didn’t come today as I paid for next day delivery. Bit frustrating but look forward to tomorrow.
Stay strong.
You are amazing and I love you. Xxx
@Eloise it’s all a science experiment and you’ll figure it out.
From the other stories I’ve been reading each fast seems to be a different experience for people who have done many.
It’s great you’ve identified a weakness in the refeed! That means you can fix it!
I have a new fasting cycle I’m trying now and so the refeed will be slightly different.
How are you making your broths?