My names Dee , I’ve waterfasted before for 3 days I lost 10lbs but now I gained it all back . I was 170lbs before after the 3 day waterfast I was 157lbs but I could never go past that. I tried fasting again but my will power is so weak now . Like I have no power to control my self . And I hate it so much , I hate being fat , I hate looking fat, I hate how I feel about my body . I just feel so unhappy . Every single day I literally tell myself ok I’m not gonna eat today . I’m going to start fasting but you know what , I end up binging , over and over I’m sick and tired of everything . I want to change my body and be happy and feel better about myself . I have the lowest self esteem ever . People like to tell me , I don’t look fat but you know what I am fat . Even my doctor says I’m over weight , it just adds to all my hatred towards my body . Everyone talks about body positivity but the reality is I can’t accept how I look . My lowest weight was 120lb ! That was back in 2011 , like shit ! I felt amazing I felt confident and happy . I was so comfortable in my skin . I wanna feel like that again . I want that confidence back and feeling stress free.
My why ? Well as you can see why I want to lose weight I’m just so damn unhappy . I’m sorry for having to rant but you know what maybe this forum is gonna help me stick to the waterfast. Now that I have written everything down , it’s like I have to stick to it now . Yes I want to get skinnier but I have back pain and hip pain , I started running a few months ago & my hips kills me like it’s sore . I tell my mom she says it’s cause I’m heavy and I’m running for long periods of time . So my joints are gonna hurt . I really want to restart my body and feel better about myself .
Current weight: 160
Goal weight: 125
I have a long way to go wish me luck ! I’m hoping this time I can do it .