Dear dairy: I have not written these words since I was a little girl. And it does not surprises me that these words are the ones that come to mind when writing in this daily journal right after stoping my food intake for 7, 14, 21, days? In my case, these layers of fat are here because a little girl hasn’t dealt with her power in any different way. Food has always been there, available when many other things weren’t. But, enough about my old story. My new story starts today! My goal is to let myself be and feel without taking food and putting it inside my body. I need and want to mother myself now, in this way. I am always overindulging in everything. “Just one more. I will start tomorrow. OMG! feel my emotions?!”
My weight is 93 kilos or 205 pounds. I want to weight 70 kilos. Why? Because too much of my daily narrative has to do with food and size, and I am tired of hiding in it, of postponing my life until I get in shape. I am a mother, a wife, a creative arts therapist, but there is something more, something that requires me, all of me. It is f…ing time to step into my power!
I am happy to be here with all you warriors!
