The number of fasts I’ve started has helped me tremendously practice but the goal is to finish. I’ve done it 3 times. 7 day, 18 day, and 30 days.
No, you can’t avoid hunger, you “learn” to manage it. You “Learn” to quiet the demand in your mind. I’m tired. I’m tired of starting and not getting there. There is an inner strength that you draw on, and I have, I did. I even cried. I cried because I wanted to quit and I wanted at the same time to get to the finish. So I cried because I wasn’t quitting. I am ready to cry to get to the end. That strength… I don’t have it… it comes from somewhere… I get it. I can’t order it here… it just comes sometimes… and sometimes, no.
I am drawing on determination, and commitment to “myself.” When I commit to myself its harder to cave… because I don’t want to let myself down. No. not today.