Beth’s Daily Journal

Intro
Hi! My name is Beth and I am 3 weeks shy of my 45th birthday :scream: I have struggled with my weight most of my adult life because I come from a family that “lives to eat, not eats to live.” Most everything we did was based around food. I have done every program out there: Weight Watchers, Quick Weight Loss, Isagenix, Nutrisystem, Transitions, LCHF or the egg fast, Beachbody 21 Day Fix, MediFast, Noom, etc. Everything worked briefly until I resumed my old habits or just couldn’t make that program a lifestyle. My lowest adult weight that I can remember is 139 lbs when I was 30 and did a program through Quick Weight Loss Centers in Florida. When I got engaged and moved to New Jersey I gained some weight and got married in 2009 at 155 lbs. I am really good at gaining weight :woman_facepalming:t2: and by the time I got pregnant in 2011 I weighed 176. I gained 50 lbs in that pregnancy and weighed 225. I had our second child in 2016 but in between my kids I had 2 miscarriages and when I got pregnant in 2015 I weighed 200 lbs and gained another 50 lbs :woman_facepalming:t2: Somehow I slowly got the weight off and 2 years ago my doctor asked to to try a program called ProLon which is basically a 5 day fast with minimal, really gross packaged food. That’s when I found fasting and got down to my lowest recent weight of 182. I felt amazing but I resumed my old way of eating and I gained the weight back slowly and then quarantine hit and I gained an additional 15 lbs with all of the stress and baking. So now at 215 lbs I feel so fat, bloated all the time, ashamed, tired, embarrassed and my clothing doesn’t fit. Fasting works for me, I just have to make it a lifestyle that I can stick to and never look back. I want to feel good again! I am currently on BP meds and am insulin resistant (metabolic syndrome). I want to reverse these problems with a new fasting lifestyle and eating whole foods :pray:t2:

Why
I am doing this because I want to reverse my health issues so I can enjoy life with my kids and my husband. They enjoy being active outdoors, sports and going on long hikes and I do not want to get winded so quickly when I participate. Weight loss and getting healthy are my biggest challenges and I want to prove to myself that I can get myself healthy. I can do it!

Long Term and Short Term Goals:
Long term goals
Once I get myself healthy and practice what I preach, I’d like to go back to school and become a Health Coach. I have done this this yet due to finances and because I can’t teach others how to get healthy when I’m not healthy myself.

Short term goals
Goal #1: Lose 25 lbs by 8/14/20
Goal #2: lose another 25 lbs by 10/31/20
Goal #3: lose a total of 60 lbs by 12/31/20
Goal #4: lose a total of 80 lbs by 2/14/21

Non-Scale Goals:
Get off of BP meds by 10/31/20
Normalize BP
Reverse insulin resistance
Fit into size 8 clothing

What are some struggles you face or you have faced in the past?
The difficulties I have are feeding my family while I am fasting and not believing in myself. I have two young kids that are picky eaters and I have been slowly weaning them off of refined sugar and unhealthy foods and changing their diet to better choices. I have struggled to lose weight through so many programs over so many years that I have a hard time believing that I can get the weight off. Deep down I know I can do it!

** What is your game plan?**
My game plan is to fast for 21 days and do these challenges to get myself through it and refeeding. I think I will need to do a few (3-5) long (21 day) fasts and in between I will alternate doing OMAD and ADF and eating LCHF, not necessarily keto. I have 60-80 lbs to lose, I’d like to lose 80 but I feel like I’ll know when I’m in a good place with my weight. My doctor suggested that I get myself into the 140’s and then stay there!

How do I feel right now?
I feel like crap, bloated, pain in hip, not sleeping well, cranky, fat, can’t stand to look in the mirror BUT…

Right now I am excited to be doing a challenge and just look forward to accomplishing a 21 day fast! I want to give myself the gift of weightloss and maybe get myself off of BP meds for my birthday. I just don’t feel good physically or mentally and I want to feel confident and sexy again!

How will I feel once I achieve my goal?
I will feel amazing and so freaking proud of myself and like I can accomplish anything!

Daily Affirmation
I am strong! I will achieve my goal weight by February 2021! I can do this!

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Wow!

Great intro.

I’m working towards a weight goal before my birthday in February too. :slightly_smiling_face:

I think it’s ok to love feasting, as long as it’s balanced out with some Fasting.

Be sure to mark special occasions ahead of time on your calendar so you can fast around them. I think it’s harder when you have a family.

Sounds like you have an idea of how you’re going to proceed.

You know what you want. Go get it girl!

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Thanks so much for the tip about fasting around special occasions! My biggest difficulty is feeding the family when I’m fasting; I have to get better at food and meal prepping.

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