Bambi's Journal

[mool]

day 1 esketit
Good morning! I’m doing this for several reasons-

1. I feel unhealthy (been having lots of chips, irregular meal times, body fat gain, oily skin, headaches, drinking, lack of exercise)
2. I want to feel good again (about my looks - that’s right I SAID IT)
3. I want to feel in control of my eating and not be so obsessed with food

Some goals of mine-
SHORT-TERM: get to 48 hours and not binge right after, feel a little lighter, don’t depend on coffee
LONG-TERM: it would be amazing to get to 92 hours to beat my records of 75 hours, lose some body fat, get in control of my eating and have whole-foods after this and no more dairy

Struggles-
KETO FLU. I HATE FEELING SICK, ESPECIALLY WHEN I’M NOT ACTUALLY SICK. I love feeling high energy and when I know my feverish/cold symptoms can all be pushed aside with some eating… I gotta do it. But yeah. Also, explaining to everyone and their uncle what I’m doing, so I’m going to keep it on the DL. It can also be very isolating, so I’m really glad this forum exists which I think will help a lot!

My Plan:
GOING ALL IN. WE GOT THIS. WATER, SALT, Mg and K, LOTS OF SHOWERS, AND SELF-LOVE BEBEH.

How I’m feeling:
Sluggish, hot head, bloated, blegh! But excited and now determined to get a little reset button for my body!

Visualization:
bitch i will feel PROUD, lighter, more in control, and less stressed - honestly! and happy I have some extra coin in the bank from not eating out as much!

Positive Affirmation:
I am hardworking, and when I set my mind to something, I can get it done.

Current weight: 113.8 lbs (wearing underwear and socks lel- consistency!)

[Georgia69]

You got this! I’ve been doing OMAD but this week my doctor wants me to do 3 days water fasting but I want to add 1 or 2 days extra 4 to 5 days , well let’s see it’ll go ! And WELCOME HERE WE GOT THIS!!!

[mool]

Day 2, 12 PM, 25 hours in, Post-Midterm, post-barely any sleep… feeling very weak and sleepy.

I have lots of work today and really don’t want to have to lean on caffeine to carry me through but I might use a little.

I have work starting now and then a large assignment due right after.

The plan is that once I get home around 5:45, i smoke a shit ton of weed and just sleep because i fucking need the rest, and i deserve it.

My partner keeps offering me food and I keep subtly dodging it because i dont wanna explain.

GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!

Update- 2:17 PM
haven’t had any caffeine so i’m proud of myself for that, also got a lot of work done, and finished my assignment. not gonna lie, i am feeling really really shitty. I was pretty unhealthy before this with lack of sleep, too much caffeine, alcohol, and carbs. it makes sense.
im leaving to go home like 2 hours earlier than expected, and i kind of have a sense of accomplishment now so it’s getting better. cant wait to hit that blunt and go the fuck to sleep.

i hope everyone else is doing better ! we got this!

Update- 8:20 PM
REALLY OBSESSING OVER FOOD RIGHT NOW. and i feel sick. i don’t know if i can handle this yall. I was at 112.4 when I weighed myself earlier today, so down 1.8
// it’s 9:10 PM now. I won’t cave. i wont!

However, to be honest I feel really hot and have a fast heart rate, and feel very light headed and weak. If this doesnt go away by morning i am breaking my fast.

[mool]

11/18/19, Monday
Hello everyone! I’m going to be doing a 48 hour fast every week until my trip to the homeland next month. Here goes weekly fast #2!

• Why am I doing this?

1. Health benefits - I drink, I eat lactose and lots of sugar, I am still eating at irregular times, feeling oily and congested
2. I want to look good for my family… yeah. Where my family’s from, there are some narrowminded beauty standards and I’ll be meeting a lot of them for the first time. This is not necessarily healthy I know because no one should be trying to get anyone to like them for their looks - but there’s already a language barrier and I’m human aight, I need all the reinforcements I can get to feel comfortable in this new environment, jafeeel.
3. I want to just be healthier and practice this as another form of self-love and respect. I have noT BEEN DOING THAT. I’ve been feeling insecure about my capability in my major, and my usefulness as a human being in general and I need to start giving myself some love.

• Goals
  Short-term: stick to my 1 48-hour/week whilst not depending on coffee, and stay happy and don’t be hard on myself if it doesn’t go exactly to plan, work-out 3 times a week
  Long-term: no drinking, less lactose!!, less meat, keep it up with cutting down on processed foods! and… if I could get below a certain weight (not putting because it can be triggering and we are all different), DAMN. that’d be awesome.

• Struggles
  Dates and hangouts, and my love of cooking. I also get pretty stressed and lean on food for that, also my housemates make delicious food all of the time. I think to combat these things, I have to give myself a whole lot of love (showers, masks, stretching, walks, drawing, journalling) and water and fun (dates, headstands or something else I can learn, little trips to the city nearby).

• Strategy
  Going all in, knowing I have done multiple 1,2,3 day fasts, with lots of self-love and wisdom from the past. Visualizing how good I’ll feel throughout this month feeling healthier, and how stabilized I’ll feel going on my trip! I believe that I can complete this plan I set out for myself, I have hope in my determination.

• Visualization
  Proud, lighter, confident, ready, less-stressed, cute, less insecure, more in control, happier, less anxious

Let’s do this! I am 17 hours in now.