Fast 2 - Day 3 & 4:
I think I was in deep levels of ketosis. The vivid dreams and waking up early continued. Even though people say sleeping less is ok, since body doesn’t need more rest. But, I felt kind of fatigued. It wasn’t a good sleep. Also, for some reason I was feeling perpetually sad. Nothing bad has happened recently, but I just had this grey cloud hanging over my head for past 2 days. I tried hanging out with friends, watching my favorite comedies, painting, etc. Tried distracting myself as much as possible, but just had this inexplicable feeling of sadness follow me all the time. Moreover, time was moving very slowly as well.
I ended up re-feeding again at the end of Day 4. Not sure why. Wasn’t hungry at all. Did have some lightheaded feeling, but nothing like last time. I think it was the depression that made me want to eat. Not sure of the reason. It wasn’t even my mind winning. I literally didn’t think much before eating. I can’t explain it, I was in a very weird place.
But, oddly eating did help me get rid of the cloud of sadness. At least for today. But, later I got a mini anxiety attack that the weight I am losing will come back. Basically, my stomach had shrunk a lot since I started fasting (obviously, since there is nothing in it) and the light re-feed, ended up causing it to balloon up a little.And that took me to a bad place, where I felt that all my efforts spent on fasting will be wasted even before I leave for my vacation. And I will look horrible. I have been able to calm myself a little since then. Fasting is the best way to lose weight. So, I am doing all I can. I will need to be careful with my re-feed and all. But, as of now I am doing the best I can.
But, I still can’t figure out how to shop for my vacation. I was planning on going to shop this weekend and the next, while I will still be in fasting. So, should I buy a size higher to account for the water weight gain? I am so confused and so emotionally unstable right now. haha…
Any ways Fast 3 starts!! Hopefully, won’t re-feed soon.