Amber’s Daily Journal August 16 2029

[Amber_Duff]

I tried to start water fasting six days ago but fear and not being mentally prepared held me back . Since then I have been watching videos and mentally preparing responses to the thoughts I automatically have about food. Something clicked today and I was able to walk by the French Fry cart even though I desperately wanted them by telling myself they would still be there later but right now I need to lose the fat and be healthier . It felt like a victory . I walked through Walmart and told myself it wasn’t going out of business and I used the tip to tell myself my body was eating all the extra I had given it already . I passed up the food and bought herbal teas to drink instead.

I am heading to the beach in four weeks and I would love to wear the size sixteen dresses I have in my closet and not buy anything new. I am currently 227 and a size 18.

I took some before pictures today to keep me motivated , made a pile of novels to keep me distracted and subscribed to a lot of water fasting YouTube channels to keep me on track with people who have succeeded and are reaching the same goals . Before bed I will also make a list of cleaning chores and activities to keep me busy .

I am really hoping the preparation is going to pay off. I am expecting to be very challenged . I am going to try and stay away from social media and Pinterest to keep exposure to food stimulus minimized at the beginning.

I am tired of being fat . I am tired of my knees hurting , my skin being sallow and my breath being short . I know I can lose this weight and I will prepare to eat differently when my fast is done . Being at the beach for a month and away from my own environment will help .

Thank you for the opportunity to change . I am too young to be unhealthy. I can do this

[itslaceybee]

I’m happy to be fasting with you! Although I’m restarting tomorrow because I gave in today. My mindset gets in my way and I truly hate it. I jist finished my last meal so I’m officially restarting now.

[Stacia]

Hi! We can do this … let’s help each other by sticking to our plans (I’m saying this to me too as I keep getting to day 2 or 3 and losing it)… on day 2 now … we can do this !!!

[creamyreemy0]

Love how you ended your first entry. You absolutely can and will do this, and you’re going to surprise yourself with how much willpower you can summon. Food isn’t going anywhere, you’re 100% right about that, and it’s a good mantra to get you through the induction period. How far did you get when you started last week?

[Amber_Duff]

Only about a day . I kept thinking I want to eat this or I want to eat that before I start. Finally I realized I just have to start . It will be there the rest of my life.

[Amber_Duff]

Yes we can . I am also on day two also . I noticed I woke up earlier and had more energy already . I had no idea how much energy constantly being over full takes .

I am so happy you all took time to comment . I know that we can do this if we keep supporting each other. Thank you so much

[creamyreemy0]

Do you have a decisive goal # of days you’d like to achieve? That in itself brings you halfway to the finish line.

[Amber_Duff]

It’s okay . I had a meatball yesterday . One but I still counted it as a victory . One meatball compared to my usual diet of way too much was too little to not count as a victory and lose my momentum. I am sure you are still more aware of what you are eating than you were before . Progress is important too . Hopefully I hear you made it tomorrow! Keep going . We are worth it .

[Amber_Duff]

Yes let’s !!! I am so happy that you want to fast together. It was wonderful to wake up to messages . It really helps . What is your reason for fasting ?

[Amber_Duff]

I am trying to follow the tips that were given in the videos . I am going to try three if I feel good I will go on to five etc… In the back of my mind I would love to go until I leave for the beach which is 30 but I feel like if I hit any of the milestones it’s a victory because it’s my first time .

[creamyreemy0]

The support is super helpful for me as well Especially since not many people, i.e. no one, in my family can ever fathom the reason for my extended fasts. I have issues with emotional binge eating and exercise bulimia to the point where I’ve been spinning my wheels for years. The only time I ever feel real peace is when I stop eating, but it takes 5-7 days of fasting to reach the point of contentment.

As for tackling a 3-day or 5-day challenge, I can practically speak for most fasters that those are the toughest parts of the fast. Beyond that, you’ll be on cruise control.

[Miramar]

@Amber_Duff

fear and not being mentally prepared held me back

Yes! Mental preparation is key. Also being able to pause when faced with a trigger situation and talk it out with your ego.

Keep watching all the fasting videos you can and reading up.

I started just a couple months ago at 223 (close to your weight) and now my size 16’s are starting to fall off. You have a lot to look forward to and good problems to come.

Also for any fasts past 48 hours be sure to also study up on refeed. The refeed and what you do during those periods are maybe even more important to follow than the fasting time.

I started posting in a journal before I started my first fast. Posting daily has helped keep me in line.

[Amber_Duff]

That is so nice to hear . I am feeling some hunger since it is noon and I am used to a full meal and lots of snacks by now . Luckily my mother called and we are starting a painting project. Hopefully being busy. Will keep my mind off it.
Do you find it’s the feeling of being full or the oral fixation with you ? I am realizing that as long as I drink … I don’t really need to eat when I am hungry. I think I just have been used to putting something in my mouth . It really doesn’t matter what .

What is the thing that has struck you most that you learned about yourself ?

[Amber_Duff]

Thank you so much for sharing your experience. I can’t tell you how nice it is and how much I appreciate it . It’s also wonderful to hear that it is working for someone my size .

[creamyreemy0]

I think it’s just my tendency to overthink. Stuffing my face puts me in a drugged up state where I can’t think about anything except the pain in my stomach. I’ve been able to get over the habit through fasting, but I still slip up when triggered. It’s usually heartbreak or rejection that sends me into a spiral, but I’ve gotten better at coping with those feelings.