I’m here again.
After taking a break of social media including posting on here, I’m finally back.
I used my time wisely to prepare myself mentally for finally doing and ending a long fast. Over the last few months I’ve been doing many short faste which was helping me getting used to regular fasting and already quite changed my relationship with it!
Now I definitely can say that I enjoy it much more in a cleaning, and positive way than before!
But still have to be honest that I struggle with referring and not falling back into bad eating habits. Due those behaviors I’ve lost and gained the exact same couple of pounds and basically didn’t move forward.
I’m tired of this. Tired of restarting everyday. Tired of not resisting to food. Tired of hiding. Tired of making excuses, procrastinating, being ashamed and not being in control of this goddamn food!
Now it’s time to make changes since exactly one month I’ll move to another country, into my first own apartment and I wanna quite my old habits and actually CHANGE.
Not only weight wise but most important mentally! I have so many reasons why I wanna do this!
REASONS
•feeling good in my skin
•proving myself that I’m actually capable of doing this
•getting out of my lazy comfort zone
•healing my relationship with food!!
•stop over obsessing over food all the time
•self love
•making myself proud!
• starting my life in Copenhagen without having to hide, my body and actually start LIVING
There is so much more but most important is that I wanna look at myself and be proud of what I’ve accomplished, look and feel good! I’ve been wanting to change the way my body looked for years, but over the time my relationship with food got worse and isn’t healthy anymore.
I’ll never be completely happy if I’ll continue making excuses. If I wanna change something, I have to act right now!!
Atm I’m feeling extremely puffy and bloated after the last weeks included overindulging in food after I’ve had a period of fasting and obviously loosing weight.
I didn’t step on the scale since I know I’ve gained it back again but probably most due water retention and food weight!
I took horrifying before picture which I was always afraid of but at the end, I’ll look at them and be proud of how far I’ve come!
Its the third June where I live and my goal is to keep going until the morning of July fourth! So exactly 30days!
I’ll use my fasting time to go for long walks, read, practicing my danish vocabulary and actually enjoy this time.
I’m motivated and I’ll keep updating you guys every day on here!!! This time I won’t give up!