Sorry Yasemin. I struggle expressing how im feeling.
As its been a while since i last posted on the forum. I completed my last goal of one meal every 2nd day as well as completing my gym classes. I really enjoyed getting back into the gym i hadnt been consistently going for the last 6 months. Part of the reason is because i was ashamed to see the gym instructors due to weight gain. They previously congratulated me on my weight loss and i was embarrassed to step back in the gym at a heavy weight. I know its silly buts thats how i felt. I must admit my body struggled with the workouts. My first session i felt as if i was gonna pass out and vomit. I didnt but it was a horrible feeling. But i went back and continued on. I was happy to get back into it and the gym instructors were very supportive of me.
I followed that with a week of OMAD and kept up the gym sessions.
Then then i joined the March fasting group. I didnt set a goal as i never done a proper extended fast before and was affraid of failurem Many times i thought of quitting and made excuses to why i needed to stop. Every symptom i got. The headaches, reflux, body aches. I took my supplements and persisted despite my husband disagreeing with my choices.
Im currently at 90hrs and 30mins and have decided to stop at 95 hours. Ive decided that will return to OMAD and keto. I have many reasons why ive decided to stop but my main reason is that i want to get back into the gym. I feel the longer i leave it will make it harder for me to get back to my previous level of fitness. Currently i havent got the energy to much more then walk.
I am proud of my achievement of doing 4 days of fasting and hope to try again and get past 4 days.
Jess S Journal
I support this decision fully! I am proud of you for coming and writing it down! Itās important to listen to your body!
Symptoms of detox are rough at the beginning and thatās why practice makes perfect!
I know what you mean about being embarrassed to go back to gym after gaining some weight or after seeing some people, that concept of āgymtimidationā is very real!! 
Make sure you donāt have so many carbs or protein tonight and take it easy while you break your fast so you donāt get nauseous!! 
keep doing our challenge with OMAD + workouts!
Hi thanks for your support. what are good options when breaking an fast. Im preety good at knowing carb amounts. What would be considered high protein
Update: im currently unwell in bed with sore throat and fever. So maybe some of my symptoms were from that today. Its the 3rd time in last 3 weeks that i had a sore throat but never had the fever. Ive just took paracetamol (aka tylenol) to help with fever. Not sure if thats okay to take whilst fasting but i feel horrible.
Okay 3 days after I completed my fast. Still have a sore throat but no longer having fevers. Iāve now had 3 meals. First meal I felt so nauseous and struggled to finish it. But getting easier. Good news my weight hasnāt gone up since the fast stopped.
Admission time. Yesterday I ate cupcakes and had KFC for dinner. First time Iāve given into temptation. My plan was to get back into it today and reset. And today Iāve had chocolate and bread. Why is it that I canāt I have one bad meal without going overboard. Instead of 1 bad day of eating Iāve now had 2. The day is not over. Iām going to have a low carb dinner and follow that up with a good option for dinner tomorrow. No food in between. No excuses.
Finally going to gym within the next hour. So looking forward to that and focusing on being healthy and not just about my weight.
I think Iāve mentioned it before but I weigh myself daily and get into a funk when I see my weight go up. This is what triggered me after my fast and I made stupid choices because of this. So Iāve decided to put the scale away for the rest of the month. And just focus on healthy eating and my fitness.
I feel the same about scales, it shifts my focus from doing healthy choices and behaving in a beneficial pattern, and instead changes my own self image. Itās crazy, since most of us are very aware of all the different factors that plays a role in weight fluctuations, and we still canāt get away from ācontrollingā.
About this sentence: āWhy is it that I canāt I have one bad meal without going overboardā
Iāve learnt that what you eat today, youāll crave tomorrow. Thereās a very logic scientific explanation for why most humans canāt have āmoderationā and a cheat meal here and there. Our brains are formed to prioritise memories of all calorically dense food we get our hands on, to increase our chances of survival. And when this memory is very fresh from the day/days before, the cravings for high calorie foods are more intense than if you wouldnāt have eaten it for 2 weeks.
Itās the same principle for addictions such as cigarettes. If you have quit smoking and give in to ājust oneā cigarette at a party, youāll be back with the strong cravings the day after, just like youāve never stopped smoking.
According to scientist that works with addiction, it takes around 3 days of intense cravings before the urges starts to become less strong, but they have discovered that humans get spontaneous cravings every once in a while, even long after they have quit using a drug, and thatās usually where the trap of relapse is, because theyāve become too relaxed about it!
Sorry for my ramble haha! I hope youāre feeling better! 
So its been rough. I stuck with my plan for a few days. Been going to the gym (there still open in Australia). Then last 2 days I had bad food days. 1st when I visited the mother in law. Instead of saying no to lunch which I was strong enough previously to do. I gave in to a meal full of carbs. I went home had my dinner hoping a no carb dinner would make it easier today. Then I had an good lunch today. Followed by a cookie that I made with my daughter and take away for dinner. Feeling yuck and horrible again. Iām struggling. Iāve decided to fast. Not sure how long to go for. But I just need to quit food for a few days.
We are all yucky balls of anxiety and stress !!! Letās get up, rise & grind tomorrow like we have a purpose! 
Checking almost 21hrs in. Going good so far. Trying to keep busy
26 and a half hours since I last ate. Just sat and drank water whilst my husband ate pizza. Staying strong.
42 hours 40 mins. Have decided to join the current challenge. ADF. So will have dinner tonight (sat)& tomorrow (sun) and fast Monday Wednesday & Saturday (as Iām working Saturday therefore easy to fast on working days). Feeling a little bit hungry. But know I can wait til 6pm. Iām going to count my calories as well so I ensure Iām eating enough on my eating days.
Update. Didnāt end up fasting Monday. Just did Omad as i thought it was better then eating bad food. Its becoming a bit more stressful in Oz. Gyms are now closed. Non essential stores are closed. Currently have a cough. So just a bit worried.
Have a high fever? Shortness of breath?
Those are the other 2 symptoms that may indicate possible COVID-19 according to the CDC here in the US
no fever or sob. Im a nurse so Iām thinking itās just a normal cold as I feel well. But there are cases with people without symptoms so it makes you worry a little. I called our national helpline and they recommended I self isolate and donāt need testing.
Just posted on Yasemin post about my schedule for the day so thought I would put my plan for today here as well.
Its the 26th of Match 1am (daughters finally asleep and Iām catching up on your YouTube videos and sorting my laundry.
Plan for today
Organise my at home exercise equipment
Workout 30 mins
Fun activity with my daughter
Clean
Go for walk around block
Cook
Fast
Read 30 mins
My daily plan will be mostly be this except will try to organise a different area or room and wonāt be fasting everyday.
I will take photos throughout the day to be accountable
I love this! You got it !!! Today will be a great day!
Beautiful
Got most things crossed off the list. Today I cleaned my kitchen/dinning/lounge room, did some craft with my daughter, baked brownies for my husband, cooked dinner, went for walk, finished my fast of 24hrs and followed exercise youtube video. Just waiting for my daughter to go to sleep before I organise gym equipment and read a book.
This is a photo after I cleaned. It was very messy before.
