This is my fourth day fasting, but my first journal entry.
My big “why” as to what made me want to do this is back in 2015 I went on a birth control which caused me to gain about 45 lbs over the span of just two months. Nothing I have tried to do by way of diet and exercise since has resulted in any weight loss for me. Nothing except fasting. Back in September I did my first fast which lasted 11 days and it was the lowest weight I’ve been in years, I was so happy I knew I wanted to complete another fast, but hopefully a longer one this time. This is what I am trying to accomplish now. I NEED to get back to feeling like myself again, fitting into my own clothes, not being uncomfortable just walking around and existing. This is the only way I know works.
My short term goal is to complete a water fast for the whole month of January and my long term goal is to then implement Keto and/or OMAD to be able to sustain the weight loss I accomplish. I also want to implement more exercise into my daily regimen.
My biggest struggle is my massive food addiction and my abuse of food as a means of making myself feel “better” or “happy”. I have always eaten emotionally and used food more as a drug than as sustenance. But it only makes me feel happy for about ten seconds and then I hate myself afterwards.
Right now, on day four, I am feeling very lethargic and weak. Anytime I stand up or move around I quickly become EXHAUSTED and need to sit down. I know this will go away based on the last time I fasted so I’m not too worried. Yesterday was my hardest in terms of cravings so far.
Once I have achieved this goal, I can’t even really imagine the level of happiness I would feel. I would be back to being the person I used to be and that is priceless. It would literally be a dream come true, especially if I can sustain it afterwards.