The most important thing you can do is an honest evaluation. From where I’m standing, it appears that you valued celebrating a great win with someone over continuing your fast. That’s great as you learned something about yourself and create a strategy in dealing with when it pops up again in the future. As Yoda said in the 2nd movie “The Last Jedi” in the current Star Wars trilogy, “Failure is the Greatest teacher.”
Bris Fastmas calendar
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FASTMAS DAY 17
keto day 10
IF 16:8/ 18:6-ish
In light of my recent false start, I’d like to share with you all my reasons “why”. It’s been compiled and added to since Fall 2017 
I read over them again this morning and put in bold things Im especially feeling today.
also: I’m at a new lowest weight today, despite of miraculously falling short of my 42 hour fast.
My Reasons “why”: *How will life be different once I lose weight ?
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“At , I just know life would be different”
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Don’t want to be embarrassed to be on a candid /group photo
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I will be able to move on to other goals that wouldn’t be worth it of I hadn’t been normal weight to begin with
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I’ve always been overweight as an adult. And past few years I have been obese.
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Buy nice clothing knowing “my size is this my size is that” before my size was not defined and it was starting to get out of control.
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learn to sew & It would be awesome to make/tailor my own clothing and have a “size” measured out that I’m proud of
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Start feeling confidently again when dating
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Be able to pick up my own body like pushups and pull ups all the fat won’t keep me down
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Weight won’t be an excuse why I was treated a certain way
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Spend less mental energy thinking about how I wish I was thin or how to lose weight
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Won’t have to lie about my weight on drivers license
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Won’t be embarrassed to get in scale at doctors office
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Be able to ask for running/ exercise advice without feeling like the obvious reason I am having trouble with any fitness goal is because of my weight— being able to be honest in those communications
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Lift the paranoia of having to wear a bathing suit in front of others/ going to the beach could be fun/exciting.
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Won’t be on guard when issues come up about someone’s weight in fear that my weight would come up in conversation/ trying to diverge the conversation to save that from coming up.
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I will have conquered a goal that has always been a burden on me
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The phrase "… and for the average person… ” example won’t be lost on me because of the exception that I am overweight
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I want to be able to give a store my measurements and not be worried that they don’t have a size that fits me
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Clinically not be overweight/obese by BMI, waist circumference, BF%, etc… Idk how to explain this one, it would just be nice to be able to point to these numbers as not a problem for me/ im not at risk for anything- in short “objectively not fat”
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To be able to work out in front of a mirror without being grossed out by myself.
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Be an example/inspiration for others
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Those “why’s” are so important. I read through mine every now and then too on my phone. I never want to go back to when I felt my worse. I don’t ever want to be stuck in that depressive state!
You’re doing so well! Keep fighting 
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Fastmas day 18
keto day 11
I have nearly finished the book "Why we get fat” by Gary Taubes. It speaks the very same message as the obesity code, but I actually found it better at explaining the bodys response to food. soo many holes in logic have been set for me, which only further piques my interest.
the journey has become more to me than simply weight loss. Yesterday I googled about continuous glucose monitors… they/'re really only used for people with diabetes type 1, and you apparently need a “prescription” to have health insurance cover it for you – but I also saw articles from people who don’t have diabetes who decided they wanted to try out using one, and seem to have no problem getting their doctors to prescribe it.
I purchased my first blood glucose/ketone kit a couple months ago when I was doing ADF, and I love checking it. LOL. I dunno, it makes me feel like a little scientist. I even drew in my parent’s curiosity last weekend when I offered to check their glucose too. My moms was 101 and Stan’s was 125. The highest reading I’ve ever gotten was 98 – so I was kinda shocked to see their numbers so different and high compared to me… but apparently these aren’t diabetic numbers.
I weighed the same as I did yesterday which is kind of a bummer because I really restricted my food yesterday. I didn’t eat until dinner time and I just had chicken, cauliflower mashed potatoes, and collard greens. I had dessert too, the keto ice cream by a company called rebel — OMG sooo good! And then about an hour after that I had my keto hot cereal. :shrug:
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When did you check your parents’ glucose? First thing in the morning before breakfast or some other time? If so when?
Don’t get discouraged about daily weight readings when you’re not fasting. Focus on the overall weekly trend.
It was right after breakfast if I can remember. Stan isn’t doing keto though, so 
these seem normal now.
DAY 19 OF FASTMAS
DAY 12 OF KETO
Getting a late start to my morning. Today is the last day of going into the office this year. For the next couple Fridays I will be WFH (working from home) and so I’ll be back in Kentucky for a lot of it. Today we have a holiday party from 3-5pm of which Im not sure Im going to attend or even want to attend. That is gonna be a last minute decision depending on who else goes and if I’m pressured to go… the company I work for is getting much much bigger so its hard to even tell if it will be fun or just a mess because even my department has probably doubled in size in the last year. Also, I want to do all I can right now to protect my diet.
Yesterday there were two extra sugar temptations that I didn’t pay too much attention to but shows how much more mentally strong I am: there was a Christmas breakfast bar which looked kinda awesome in the building/tower that I work in, and then a girl who I work with passed out what looked to be like candied pretzel and fudge and stuff in little gift baggies to everyones desk. I got through without eating either, which I’m not sure I would have been able to do even before my keto protocol started.
This morning I took my glucose and ketones again. Fasted for about 14 hours from yesterday, even though I went over 20 carbs yesterday, probably around 30 carbs I am guessing.
glucose: 74
ketones: 0.6
barely in nutritional ketosis! I am curious whether anyone else’s ketones trend this low? The highest theyve ever been since starting this lowcarb/keto plan have been 0.8 – and then the highest I’ve ever read them be was during my Alternate day fasting regime when I was eating sugar and that was 1.1 – still not optimal, right? I read something last week that said some people’s ketone levels don’t get very high ever, and wonder if thats the case for me.
Another interesting thing about my ketone levels is if I go by the urine ketone levels they are usually reading very high. I don’t know enough about the difference between the blood and urine tests, maybe I can dig some more so I know whats going on with the discrepancy there.
My weight was exactly the same again, which I’m ok with since I’m not extended fasting.
Yes. In terms of insulin levels they will rise for carbs and proteins, not for fats though. Whether it’s Keto or not doesn’t matter in this case. As a former T2 diabetic I was taught to wait at least 2 hours before taking a glucose reading. As long as it’s below 150 after a meal is normal.
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Day 20 FASTMAS
Day 13 keto/ LCHF diet
went a bit over on my carbs yesterday but didn’t go off plan which is what I would call at this point eating foods that are outwardly not keto friendly. I ended up making some keto brownies for dinner, lol, and I didn’t fast yesterday and I got up in the middle of the night and drank a bunch of water so I didn’t weigh myself this morning.
Any who, yesterday I did end up going to the holiday party which was a lot of fun actually. We did a dirty Santa gift exchange and one of the girls got a set of cat themed tarot cards, so just for fun a bunch of us sat in a circle and got our tarot cards read for us. It was actually a lot of fun!
I had a couple of Michelob Ultra beers at the party which each have about 2 carbs each. Interesting that alcohol seems to be low carb/ no carb for hard liquors! I’m not really a drinker but alcohol does have a place in my life for social events, and its nice that I can still have a drink or two, considering the fact that foods are more limited when I’m not in control of the menu.
Yesterday was my last day in the office for the rest of the year, hoorary! I really love my job, but I think its nice also to take a break.
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FASTMAS day 26
well, a week of break from my normally scheduled programming has caught up with me on the scale, but its being monitored and therefore managed again as of today. wow, water weight is crazy.
I plan to start back to full alternate day fasting in mid-January, Wednesday January 15th. Up until then, I will be working back up to it by doing OMAD every other day. I still have to figure out how Im going to manage how to reverse the days for next week because if I do alternate day omad, new years day will fall on a omad day, and this is gonna be a day I want to be free to eat because my brother will be in town. But, for today I am going to choose just worry about today.
Im so glad Ive somehow roped my mom into fasting with me, she’s so chill about it too. Its so funny how easily its coming to her, I have been like warning her how hard it is at first and yesterday she said something so funny, shes like you know fasting is really no big deal. lolol.
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Glad to hear you have your mom as your fasting buddy. Should be interesting to trade notes on your differing experiences. That’s what I’ve found exchanging info with Anna and Veronica. Anna just completed her 30 day so looking forward on how her ReFeed goes. Also with Veronica who completed her 14 day last week, I believe, when she gets back after her big New Year’s event.
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FASTMAS is over and a new year and a new decade has begun!
I started back to work today, but things won’t be running as regular I am estimating to be around mid-January.
I will check back then when things are feeling normal again.
I am really looking forward to that feeling again!
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Good call. A “stressful environment” is one of the bigger reasons people fail at reaching their fasting goals. Hope to see you again in the forum soon.
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I told myself earlier today: no snacking tonight!
It is now tonight, 9:24pm, and I am thinking about a snack.
I am not going to have a snack tonight. Not unless I stay up past midnight and still thinking about this snack.
The brain hack here is I almost never make it to midnight without falling asleep, with or without food. But I know myself, and I know that I have this false belief that I am still hanging on to that tells me I will sleep better or maybe won’t fall asleep at all without a snack at bedtime.
Will update next time with what happened tonight.
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Here is my promised update:
I fell asleep probably 10 minutes after I made that previous post, but then I woke up probably an hour and a half later, still craving a snack.
The only “snack” thing that I have at my apartment is halo top ice cream… and I started in on a pint, but the good news is, I only had about 3 bites before I was able to put it back down again. I think part of it was I had held myself accountable to go back to this post and post an update.
I should continue to do this when things inevitably get harder.
I have signed up for an alternate day fasting challenge with my mom. The challenge starts officially on Monday January 20th, MLK day. Up until then I will be easing myself back into longer and longer daily fasts, especially cutting myself off after dinner like I almost did yesterday.
and I am down half of a pound! Which really probably means I am maintaining at my current weight, which is about 7-8lbs from my lowest weight. not too bad considering all my weak moments. It sucks to be above my lowest weight, but even my current weight feels like a real win since it was my lowest weight about 3 months ago.
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So this post is more just for fun, I was talking to some people last night about goals and visualization and I decided for fun to post a picture of my face with a body I would like to see. I in no way expect myself to look exactly like this when I reach my goal weight but really I’ve been overweight for so long it is kind of nice to be able to see such a change. 
feeling playful and inspired tonight
That works. My previous goal of becoming medication free I visualized by putting all my medication bottles and insulin injection pen on my work desk where I had to see it everyday.
Have a new goal of “6-Pack at 60” reducing my body fat to 13% by 6/12/20. My visualization is I have a picture from my sophomore year at university when I was in the best shape of my life running 10 miles 3x per week. I have it as wallpaper on my iPhone. I know it can’t be exactly the same because I was 18 then but let’s see how close I can get!
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do you mean your BF% at 13? 13 BMI is extremely underweight!
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It’s just going to be a temporary thing to prove I can do it.
Besides, I’ve been adding lean body muscle that my BMI has dropped from 34 to 32 and my weight’s stayed the same, swapping out fat for muscle. What’s great is the actual pounds I have to lose dropped from 56 down to 48 because the BMI dropped.
Remember I lost 81lbs in 4 months and 5 days when I became medication free. Losing 48 pounds in 5 months and 4 days won’t be as difficult (I think…).
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yes I think we are talking about the same thing, I think you had said you wanted your Body Mass Index to be at 13, under 18 for anybody is underweight. What you meant to say is you wanted your body fat percentage to be at 13% which makes more sense
I totally get wanting to get to a temporary goal to prove you can do it.
In my case, If I am honest with myself, I would really like to see myself get to the lower end of the healthy body weight for my height, which would be 120 lbs, but I would be very happy to have a maintenance weight around 135.
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